I am in deep depression. I have been touched when i was young, and when i was like 9 years old (not by an adult, but someone my age). My parents don't even know i am alive most of the time! I am very overweight. I know everyone hates me, even if they don't tell me. Bipolar runs in my family too, i have very bad mood swings and sometimes hurt my parents (hit). I want to forget everything that has happened and start all over, but i don't think that is possible. I am being forced to move in with one of my step dads (which isn't that bad since most of my life i thought he was my real dad). I have dreams of children committing suicide, which disturbs me. I also have dream where i am in a horror movie (i watch too many horror films). There's a bunch i won't mention, since i am embarrassed enough.