This is Kitt and I mean this in a kind and helpful way....Stop It. I know I have done the same thing as you because I am so upset and angry about the darn depression but it does not give us a license to hurt others. You know your doing it so just Stop, put on the breaks and stay in the moment. Anger is a natural human emotion. Yet, if not well managed, anger can cause a lot of troubles such as conflicts at workplace, fights in the family, rejection of others, loneliness. Anger damages personal relationships.
The art of being wise is knowing what to overlook.
Gentle Hugs and call you physician first thing in the morning.