Well, I feel I can empathize with you. Im 17 and I'd say I've been through what you explained. I still am. But, your not alone. Those guys are full of themselves and they shouldnt have done what they did. Suicide isnt something to laugh or joke about, ever. People at school can be tough because 1) they dont seem mature 2) they dont care if they hurt you 3) it may seem like no one there is on your side. I feel like that a lot.
Im not close to my family so that was a dead end. And talking to people in general is not my strong point. So, for a long time I've felt alone. I've spoken up on and off. To friends, teachers, school counselor, doctor, and (today) a new therapist. I've told people before and have felt like over time they just walked out of my life..but I've kept going, even if it were alone, because I know eventually someone will listen.
I'd suggest talking to a school counselor, or a doctor, someone you think you can go to. I think you deserve a chance to get better. And that can happen, but it takes baby steps. You wont get better over night, I'll tell you that. But, you have to give yourself some credit. Even if your walking alone, or feel like you are, you can get far.
If you need or want too, you can talk to me. I wont mind and Im sure I can understand what you are going through. Sometimes it helps talking to someone whose been through the same stuff. But, like I said, I dont mind so if you ever want to, you can email me or talk on here. Take Care
Post Edited (Frances_2008) : 3/2/2009 2:05:24 PM (GMT-7)