okay. depression was recognised much earlier in my life than i give credit for. the doc wanted me to go on meds, i told him where to go. i was first diagnosed with cyclathymic depression, cliniical, chronic and so on. i have had many hosoitalisations due to psychosis and self harm. i had just started uni as a mature age student, and suffered many deep depressive forms of psychosis. i dropped subjects, units and after a year and a half i left.
life has been a roller coaster. many personal loses, destruction of my family, becoming homeless and selling my car to keep food in my mouth. Yes on many occassions i tried to take my life, fortunately i am here. currently i am severly depressed, not masking it though and i am advising people of this. having depression is depressing, i am trying to keep on track, yet i am drained and missed my last study class. will be chatting to the doc soon. thankx to the universe for my compassionate qwack. i have tried all therapies, do not like cbt and i have tried all the meds out there. the best treatment i had was ect a few years ago. to do this will sacrifice my studies, of which i enjoy, been 8 yrs since i have.
well... thankx for listening.
bye for now.