about five years ago I truly felt like I didn't want to be here anymore. An idiot broke my heart, I was struggling with arthritis and fibrmyalgia and trying to support 2 kids on my own and my wonderful kids were being typical teenagers. I think what helped me most is going to my dr. and getting anti depressants and then going to a counselor. I only went to the counselor a couple of times, because those were free thru my work but it was a start. And my one true friend who listened to me whine and cry. It took some time. Maybe even a couple of years before I really wanted to be me again but it happened. I'm still alone, but that's ok. I still have arthritis and fibro and a multitude of other things that keep me in constant pain but that's ok too. So what if your house isn't clean. Mine isn't. Find that person you can whine to and cry to and take your pills and one day you will wake up and you will be in control again. Find new things that interest you. Get a fish or a puppy or a hobby but get out of yourself and let your soul heal. And one day soon you will laugh and smile and really mean it. But most of all, please know that you are wonderful and I hope that very soon you realize that even if you are the only person in the world who knows how wonderful you are that's ok too. And when all this is over and you are back to being yourself you will realize what a strong woman you are because you picked up the pieces and did what you had to do to get better and you survived it.
i AM SORRY YOU ARE SAD TODAY.
yOU ARE NOT ALONE!
I understand the frustration of having surgery as I had foot surgery and I could not believe how it slowed me down literally........I could not stay home as the healing process was to be extended and I would hobble to work and try to keep my foot up on a chair..........have you ever tried that and work on a computer in an office??
I went back to the doctor and he was not happy with the swelling etc so he put me in a camWalker boot so my ankle would not bend..............man I could fly with that on but I was quiet noisy as it squeaked with every step. I was sorry I had the surgery done at the time and for the first year I could wear nothing but tennis shoes.......how chic was I?
Everything did finally heal and now I need hand surgery with rehab....I am stalling, in fact I have stalled for 3 years .
You have a right to feel frustrated but you will heal and you have us so please feel free to vent away and we are here to help you through.
Hi Dawn, so glad u are feeling better!!!