Yes it is that way. When you get that depressed, it is hard to feel feelings towards anybody, especially yourself. I am sure that she doesn't mean to hurt you. It is the disease.
I truly feel that once she gets better that she will be able to love again. She will see that you sincerely care and I am sure that she will care about you too. If she doesn't, then you deal with that when you get there. But I don't foresee that. Though I don't know her, it is just from what you have posted. But try to be optimistic about it. Don't borrow sorrow. You are dealing with enough as it is, try to put that out of your mind.
I am so happy that she called the doctor, she is taking the first steps to getting well. Be patient, like I said, this does take time. But you should start seeing gradual progress once she gets on the medications.
Best wishes to you
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies