I had a counselor just like that, all we did was talk about how I was and what I had done that week...........what I had accomplished............just nothing that I could not have talked with a friend about ever came out of the sessions and yes I gave her up.
I went without for awhile and then decided to try again and found a great one who really worked with me........about my thinking, and why I felt the way I did, how to take my sad thoughts and separate them so I could understand them better.
She taught me that my core values had been set when I was young and I had been programmed to have low self esteem and how to get past all the old baggage I was carrying with me.
I had no homework as she said the work would be done in her office and not to go home and try to drain my brain by over thinking every move I made.
She taught me to stay in the moment, and even if my mind drifted toward my old feelings of being a failure to tell myself that No, I was not a failure, that was just my brain wanting to go back to old beliefs.
I saw her for 6 months and then I made the decision to fly on my own and her door would always be open if I wanted to come back or just needed an oil change.
I hope you can find a therapist that works with you on your issues.
You lost me at "Hi Wish". Just kidding and consider yourself now initiated into the HealingWell Family. I welcome you with open arms to our wonderful forum and I am so glad you found us. I am Kitt and if you need any help please do contact Karen or myself.
We do have a welcome/intro thread I will find and pop to the top for you.
Great insite in your post. Thank you for sharing and keep on posting.
Thank you all so much, I have to agree with you skitt and zap, she is just someone that I can talk to like a friend and I can already see just in this last session thats she not willing to do what I NEED. So I have looked in my insurance directory and found 2 psychiatrists in my area. I do agree that medications help tremendously when you find the right ones but I just feel like there are underlying issues of why I am suffering. So I want to deal with them. Zap, I do know about the meds I am taking. And I can honestly tell you I haven't had a good explaination from my Dr. All she said was bipolar but didn't elaborate about what form or give me much info. I had my son with me that day and he was very distracting so I couldn't get the conversation I needed but felt optimistic about the meds. I am seeing my Dr next week because my medication needs adjustments. I've been going through a hard time lately and feel they aren't working although they have helped. I'm a little worried about going because I'm seeing a different Dr because the services that I'm using had a office closer to my home but it wasn't opened yet, so I was going to a further location and now this one is open so I'll see a different doc. I already have plans to ask many questions that I feel are unanswered because I'm really lost about what this really is. It's pretty amazing to me how casual a Dr can be when your really there to understand what your going through, not just to be put on meds. So I'm going to be really straight forward when I go, plus my son will be in care that day. I don't just suffer from depression I have this other side of me too and that's the reason for the strattera. I know that there is a bipolar board but I have more of the depression. Plus I love it here lol!
So anyway another question, the 2 psychiatrists I found are men. I'm a little leary about seeing a man please don't think I'm weird but I think I will be a little uncomfortable opening up because I feel like maybe he won't understand what I'm feeling or going through so to speak. Any advise or experiences? Thank you so much for all of your posts, the information is very helpful and specific to my needs!
Post Edited (wishdreamhope) : 3/20/2009 10:41:02 AM (GMT-6)
Thanks zap, you are very informative and you have nothing to worry about with this board, everybody here is very welcoming and understanding. There is a lot of compassion here and I feel so normal coming here. As for BP I've read a lot about it and even before I went to the doc was wondering if it was possible thats what I was experiencing. The problem I'm having is understanding mania. I thought that I could possibly have the hypomania because I can't relate to full blown mania. Because everything I read about it makes it seem like it's a eurphoric state or "happy", feeling like you can do anything etc. But what I feel is, I have a racing mind, I will talk to myself outloud because there is too much on my mind and I have to have a way to get it out. I can't focus on anything but what I'm thinking about, I feel stressed, tense, irritable and I just can't relax. I feel like I have to be constantly moving whether it's just going in and out to have a smoke, coming back in sitting on the computer then going back out. Or just picking up my house, it seems like I refuse to sit down because my mind is in a frenzy and I feel it physically too. I just can't have a normal day. I've actually had head aches from my mind being in such a frenzy. Once I do finally sit down I'm exhausted. Since taking the strattera it has helped a lot! But I've noticed in the past few weeks it has broke through and come back. I do have that side of me then I'll get severely depressed. So I don't know what that side of me is exactly and thats why I want to talk with the Dr, I don't feel happy at all and I literally hate myself sometimes because I can't stand that I'm like that! It will be hard seeing someone new but I'm just going to be really straight forward because I want answers. And your right about the sex of the therapist, I'll try not to let that bother me, thanks.
Post Edited (wishdreamhope) : 3/20/2009 8:15:33 PM (GMT-6)