Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum. We also have a Bipolar Forum which you may find helpful so please do post in that forum also.
I am sorry to hear you are in a bad place right now, but I feel your medications and developing a good relationship with your physician is a key element in getting better.
I am not an professional so I cannot give you concrete advice but it does sound like your problems may be stablized if you were on the right combo of meds and that you take then regularly.
I know you will be hearing from many of our wonderful members..................I just wanted to welcome you this morning.
hi i am jamiee. 37, male and at twenty i was an angry chap also! you are still developing, emotionally, physically, etc. a combo of med's can make you rage, and you end up raging. agree that you need to see your doc, to be honest about what is happening, otherwise you will not receive the treatment you actually need. i can tell a lot is going on for you, for most 20 yr olds a lot is nowadays, and crap it was for me 17 years ago!! that is about 100 posts worth!
keep posting, violence only breeds violence. all the vey best. keep posting and let us know how you are going, we do care.
jamiee, 37, male, iddm, major depression, severe borderline personality disorder, hormone deficency, diabetic nuropathy, severe plumbing issues, bad back, & bits & peices!!