hi, i am male and 37, and a survivor of sexual, physical, emotional abuse, aka, a sequale of child abuse. i can not remember anything below 15, my shrink tells me that my body, mind, and soul would not and could not cope with this. it is hard, i know! due to my conditions relationships were very late in adult life, 1 with another borderline, bloody mess, complicated and totally manipulative by her and parents. second relationship a while later i fell in love with my soul mate, sadly she passed away a few months later. 4 and a bit years later i am seeing a lovely lady.
i am aware that posting this was hard, you have started your own recovery by doing so. please see your doc also, depression is a medical issue. i can tell by your post that you are distressed, i hope you find the people you most need to talk to, i did with the rape crisis centr in my country, they are very discreet and very caring. other people in the community will make contact as in this community there is a wealth of knowledge and understanding. just wanted u to know that i understand.
kindest of regards, jamiee
iddm, major depression, severe borderline personality disorder, hormone deficeiny. diabetic nuropathy, back prob's - and plumbing, etc,etc.