hi community, yeah feelin' heaps better, am actually tired from doing things, i love this kind of tiredness as i know i can crash and have a deep solid. a solid 4 me is any uninterupted sleep. have been guiding a mate with a few intense and deep issues, although the time before last he overstayed his welcome, last night around 9pm i said very nicely that i have a busy day tom and that i will be kicking him out soon. i walked the dog, let him finish his drink and said i will catch up on thurs. he understood that i am tired, 1x9hr sess, and last night, 1x5hr. i do not mind helping, but just needed him to realise that i too need to de-stress before bed.
just got back from seeing gf, all is good, will see her tom, very happy to go slow, that way when we are both ready we will have the knowledge, werewithall, confidence and acceptance to start a relationship together and be together at the same time. happy to say, and have told her many times that i love her, and yes she loves me. so, no need to rush my dear friends.
going to lie down for a bit, then tackle some home stuff!! time waits for no man, yet time can be your best friend, but let me tell u i have learn't that it will never be my enemy again!! this journey of realisation and actualisation has been a long one, i will post a synopsis later, some wrong turns, pit-falls, u turns, poor decisions, etc.
thanx to the community, u guys have been a rock of knowledge and compassion...........
luv 2 all. jamiee