hi community, tis jamiee here.
yeah life is much better at the moment, still have a lot of work to do in other areas though. alike u all when in the the throws of deep depression it is hard to even get tout of bed let alone work on your issues, esp when the dishes are piling up! tonight i wish to inspire, much inspiration has come from u guys. as i read posts, i see myself there, and thus too give effective suggestions i go back and think, how would i cope with this situation, how did i work on this sit, and what helped. there is still a lot of stuff i need to deal with, for once i am prioritising my life. to those who have abused and hurt me, i have forgived. forgiveness needed to start with me first.
'yesterday is a butterfly without wings', (c) jkb yesterday is that, so i have learn't from yesterday's pain so not to bring it back into the future. sounds surreal, but for once i have no regrets, regrets only take me back to sadness. to become fully happy we need to embrace our sadiness, to forgive ourselves, and to fight for our own right to happiness as human beings.
the future, well what is what we want, me i am what is it that i need! i need acceptance, acceptance from myself first-am doing this somewhat, i still do the odd advoidance coping, i no longer use the word normal, i can't define it, alike the word hate, i avoid it, my concious is being worked on by me, by others, by reading, via suggestions, luv etc. time for the head to be cleansed with positives instead of negatives. the negatives i try to turn into positives, everything in life is an experience, it is what, how and when and all the stuff associated with it-that is important, important how i (you) deal with each experience.
each road is a path to my truth, sometimes we choose wrong, sometimes take the short cuts, life is a continous path, oone of learning, luv, understanding and development. for me each path good bad ugly or indifferent is a progression towards the future betterment and personal fulfillment for me as a human soul on this earth. if i don't look after me, how can i look after others. if my pain is put towards bad deeds, bad results will endure that pain to my death. life is a path of many paths, without them i would be lost, to be found sometimes you need to get lost. still on a path, forward i march, one foot in front of the other, no longer looking back, life for me is much too short for that. luv to the community, sorry 4 the length!!