Hang in there -- I don't think you're going to die alone. ;)
If it makes any difference, I think girls like dating guys who are crazy jerks just for the experience so those guys get lots of dates, but we don't want to stay with guys like that so then we find a really nice guy -- decent person, treats us right, generous, caring, smart, funny -- to stay with long term. The nice guys may not get as many dates, but I think they have a much better chance of being taken seriously enough by girls to have a long term relationship. So hang in there. I know it's tough now, but the nice guys really are who we want in the end.