I hear you sweetie, don't you just hate the "when people want to help you by leaving you because if they stick around they will hurt you routine.............bah......."
Why don't they just say it like it is, I want out and I am sorry it did not work out. Period and be gone with them.
By the time they are through with their speech you are convinced that "Hey, I must have done something to cause this.", "Is it Me?"
No it is not you, you did nothing wrong and don't you go beating yourself up. It did not work out, feel bad about that part but then let it go and know that this does not mean that every relationship is doomed.
Allow yourself to know it is ok to be up and down with the depression and know that people without a dx of depression feel hurt and pain when someone dumps on them. We just feel it more because we have depression. We are more sensitive to the pain and we internalize more.
I am glad to hear you are journaling, good for you. See you are a very postitive person and you are advocating for yourself, you are holding back demons and living life to the best of your ability. You are one awesome person...........be proud of yourself.
Christi, I truly understand how sad you are over this breakup. Sometimes we have to realize that it was the best thing for us. I know how hard it is and the bad feelings but you are a wondeful person with a lot to offer and you will find someone else eventually. Give yourself a chance to heal and move on. I will be writing my own sad post soon and you will understand more of these things with relationships. Take care of yourself.