It is very normal for people with Depression to feel at their lowest point in the morning. I used to wake up and while still in bed burst in to tears wondering how I would get through another day and why did I not wake up happy and excited as I used to before the depression took me by the neck and swung me around.
I was in the middle of a major depressive episode or as it used to be known, a nervous breakdown. I fought long and hard and went through a lot of therapy and many meds but I can now say that I am doing better.
Never give up and know that one day you will see the light at the end of the tunnel and one morning you will wake up and feel OK.
Stick with us and know we care.
I wish you peace,Kitt
Hey this is Kitt. My P-doc started me on Buspar first and then the Wellbutrin as she claims the Wellbutrin does not have the anxiolytic properties that you have in the SSRIs/SSNIs. I liked the Buspar and still take it but could not tolerate the Wellbutrin as it made me feel wired and dizzy.
I know all about the tendency to want to take more of a drug then prescribed and I have gotten caught up in that issue myself. I had to give up using Vicodin as I felt I was liking it to much so I weaned off that a couple of years ago.............your right coming off is as hard as going on many of these medications.
Take care my new friend.
Sleeping very well but arise early and hate this as I use sleep during th day to escape. maybe this will force me into action. Ihad a little lesss morning anxiety and know that it will pass as the day wears on.
I still feel out of place living with my fiancee. I do love her but find it very hard to express it. I feel so blunted and hope this gets better, An example of the blunting is this:
My beloved neice who I love like a child of my own had a baby a few months ago ( a beautiful girl Sadie) and while pleased she had the child, i felt nothing of joy! This is so hard to accept. I pray that life takes on new meaning. more to the point-Just meaning! I feel so pointless and useless right now.
I carry on life in the hopes it will get better. I know it will as God is good and I need to be of value again.
Thank you my friend it is nice to find so many kindred spirits
I'm happy to say that all and all it was a pretty good day. I am lucky ( I think) that I do not have a lot of demands on me as I am disabled and out of work. When I get better I will get back to being a volunteer as it gives me worth and something to feel good about. I must wait for aperiod of time as I felt ok before only to relaspe soon after.
I hope the worm has turned!
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