Korissa, I Think Karen and Raniah are right. If you have faith you will eventually see things start to improve. Have I gone from utter despair to joy? No that has not happened but that is not what I am looking for and I feel it is unrealistic to expect that type of thing happening. What I feel I am looking and hoping for is peace and contentment. What we get out of life is what we are able to put into making our lives better. I know that isn't always so easy but I think if you will stick with your counseling that will help you and maybe you will see things in a different light. The fact is all of us who have problems have to face them and do our best to get through our issues. Even my friends who seem like they have charmed lives really don't. Keep your faith and trust in God and look for the good things in life, even if it is as small as seeing daffodils in someone's garden. Surround yourself with good and honest friends. If you have a good support system you can find that life does have hope and you will start to recover. Wishing you the very best and let us know how you are doing Take good care of yourself.