Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 5/4/2009 12:37:11 PM (GMT-6)
Thank you to both of you.
He was a good guy. He told me from the beginning that he wasn't ready for a relationship. After we slept together he told me he'd call me later that day.. but I texted him before that. I should have waited. The reason I was texting was because I was worried he was ignoring me. I also wanted to get the situation settled. Do you think he'll ever contact me again? :-(
Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 5/5/2009 7:51:32 AM (GMT-6)
I know he said hurtful things, but it's my fault he said those things. I made him upset by acting clingy. I read an article that decreased seratonin levels can cause obsession. I'm seeing my counselor on Friday to see if I can take a larger dose of zoloft. Right now I'm taking 100 mg/day. I know what my problem is. :-( I need to be happy with myself so I don't become dependant on another person to be happy. Here is the passage from the article I found. I hope this helps anyone who is also going what I'm going through. I hate my own company. I feel empty and alone. :-(
Excerpt from http://www.everything.com/article.aspx?requested_url=roots-love-addiction
The biological chemistry associated with the emotion of love is real, complex, and amazing. Dopamine, norepinephrine, testosterone, phenylethylamine (PEA), and serotonin levels are all associated with the emotion of love. When an individual is feeling romantic, the levels of dopamine increase in the brain’s nucleus accumbens and caudate nucleus, and in the ventral tegmental area. This is the region of the brain that forms the reward network that has been discussed in previous chapters. You may recall that this area of the brain is heavily associated with cravings and addictions. It might even be said that increased dopamine levels act like a “love potion.” When a person’s need for love goes unmet, elevated dopamine levels lead to cravings that intensify with the unavailability of a partner. Additionally, dopamine stimulates an elevation in testosterone levels that increase sexual desire.Norepinephrine comes into play by providing energy, feelings of euphoria, and the ability to imprint this wonderful love experience into long-term memory. Remember, having a rewarding experience available in our memory banks serves as a trigger to want more and more. An interesting chemical phenomenon that occurs simultaneously with the rise in dopamine, PEA, norepinephrine, and testosterone is a drop in serotonin levels. The decreased serotonin levels lead to the obsessive qualities associated with love. All else may be forgotten in the pursuit of the love object.
Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 5/5/2009 10:16:20 AM (GMT-6)
Thank you so much.
I still don't know if it's benign or malignant but I'm praying it's benign.
I feel like I deserve what Isaac said to me. The day after we slept together he told me he wasn't going anywhere and would be my friend. But my getting obsessive drove him away. I don't think he just wanted sex. He told me that is not what he was after. He told me he cared about me as a person and wanted to be friends. And maybe one day he'd be open to a relationship.
Anyways, I hope he contacts me again. I know I have some symptoms of love addiction and co-depenance. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist on Friday to try to work on these issues because I want to find a healthy relationship and I don't want to push anyone away. I will try to forget about him but I do miss him. For now, I am focusing on my dad. Thank you everyone.
Post Edited (Akram) : 5/5/2009 7:36:45 PM (GMT-6)
Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 5/5/2009 10:12:52 PM (GMT-6)