Joecal, I am going to try to answer your post even though I found it to be quite upsetting and disturbing. In terms of your meds they do take at least 6-8 weeks to kick in. I am wondering who gives you your meds? Are you seeing a psychiatrist? I hope so. You may not be on the right medication to help you. It can take 5 or 6 tries before you find the one that works best for you.
Also, as far as the anhedonia, it is the inability to express pleasure. It is as if you are a flat line. It is a core symptom of depression and it can be a serious problem for people who are severely depressed. That is why I am asking if you see a psychiatrist. Do you have family or any close friends who are a support system for you? This is very important.
The part of your post that is so disturbing is when you speak of death and why should people be upset over someone who dies "because they are going to die anyway." Of the people on this forum who have read your post I imagine you have offended many or most of us. We all have someone in our lives who has passed away - husband, child, sibling, relative, close friend. And they have passed on due to serious illness, suicide, accident, etc.I personally am very upset by your comments because my sister was killed by a drunk driver when she was 14. His punishment was a short probation. My other sister died of a sudden heart attack. Do you know how I felt??? Can you even guess how devastated my family was? Many other HW members have lost those close to them and have a hard time dealing with the grief. Have you read other posts to see how people feel? I notice when you post you rarely reply back to others who have tried to help you. You say you have faith and believe in God - how can you say such things if you are a true believer. Someone who believes in God cares about others. You don't seem to care about anyone including yourself.
You need to think carefully before you write something that will offend people. If you aren't sure then don't write it. My feeling is you need a lot of help and I hope you take the time to do something to better your life.
Serafena, I understand what you are saying and we all have a right to our feelings and to receive help for our depression. What I was trying to point out in my post was how inappropriate it is to take the attitude "so what if someone dies, they are going to die anyway." This is extremely hurtful to those of us who have had a very painful experience with death and losing those we love so dearly. This person really should not be making those kinds of comments as I truly feel it is an insult to us who grieve so. My sister was 14 when she died, I was 13. I am now 63 and the pain never goes away. I rarely talk about it - it is just too painful for me still. I think and I know you must realize as a moderator that there are certain inappropriate things to post here. That was the reason I said the things I did. This person also answered one of my posts in a very judgemental and uncaring way. I think if you are going to post on this forum you need to follow the rules and that includes not saying insulting things to others and say things that are very hurtful. If you read the posts by this person I think you will see someone who needs a lot of help. And making judgements against others and making people feel bad is just not how the posts to this forum should be. I do not want to be one who is being wrong about comments and I would appreciate again hearing what you have to say, knowing what I have posted here. If you read my posts to others you will see that I am very comforting and concerned of others. I am not blaming any one for being depressed but saying who cares you are going to die anyway is not a perspective most of us want to see.
“If what I say resonates with you, it is merely because we are both branches on the same tree." ~W.B. Yeats
I am so sorry that this thread upset you but I feel you are a bit like me, you react when you read things and your own personal feelings come into play. That makes you the kind and caring person you are. Also you have a wealth of knowledge and first hand history with pain and loss so this post struck you as insensitive.
I will admit it did me a bit too but I chose not to take this one to heart as I believe the person posting has some serious issues and was reaching out for help.
In looking back at your Memorial Day Thread I found this: