I can relate to what you’re saying, as far as feeling that you don’t have the same appeal (physically speaking) that you used to. I have degenerative disc disease, and cannot do a lot of the things that I used to. I used to be very active, working out all the time and going dancing in clubs, etc., and although I do exercise as much as I can now (usually in the form of walking and swimming), I have put on some extra pounds because of my inability to do as much as I used to, and I often have to stop activities with others before I’d like to, which others do notice. Like you, I’m still happy with who I am on the inside, but I also realize there are those in the world who make assessments based on appearance.
That being said, you’ve made some points in your post that hold an important message: “I will never feel the same about
the values people put on others…” and “…now that I’ve been on both sides of the “good looks” fence I’ve learned something profound about
the “skin deep” philosophy.” There are other people in the world who feel the same way, probably as a result of similar experiences, and I feel very confident in saying that there is someone special out there who will love you for who you are, on the inside and the outside. It takes time, and I do believe that the timing is not up to us, but is a part of a greater plan that we’re not necessarily privy to. Please don’t give up hope….I can tell by your posts that you are a deep thinker who appreciates the simple pleasures in life, and those are very attractive and heartwarming qualities to a lot of people out there.
Best wishes to you…..keep the faith, and above all else, keep appreciating who you are.
“The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.” ~Marcus Aurelius