“The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.” ~Marcus Aurelius
Hey there this is Kitt :). My husband has Crohn's and I am wondering if you have the ankylosing spondylitis?
My husband has lost alot of weight and has the arthritis too and now people refer to him as to thin and he is self conscious of this. He was always muscular and used to weight 180s but now he will drop to 159 sometimes when things are tough and he is 6 feet tall.
I understand how you must feel. I have a skin condition and feel like I really stand out when next to others with nice skin and no blemishs. I want to wear long sleeves and long slacks always.................I have had skin cancer and had 5 areas removed.
Physical beauty is no guarantee of good character. I suspect that you will meet someone again and start to date. Do not be afraid of rejection as it is only one little word "no" and since when do we let the word no stop us. You keep on putting yourself out there and people will see the goodness and kindness in your heart and know you for who you are not what you look like.
I am so glad to read that you do know your the same person inside you have always been, full of fun and enjoying the good things in life. Bless you.
RE Martians, I kind of like green men, I am tired of the Blue Men thow............ LOL
Hugs to you my friend,
Post Edited (stkitt) : 5/17/2009 12:37:56 PM (GMT-6)
Good Morning Tony,
The hardest part in any of our mental health disorders is accepting that they are part of who we are and then learning to deal with our own feelings. I am glad you are ready to accept your feelings of depression and to face those feelings head on. I finally accepted that I have anxiety and depression and no matter how much I keep hoping that I will be the old me again I have realized that there is no old me. Only the me in the present moment.
I have prayed, and cried over having depression for years and finally I did come to realize that I am fighting something that is not going away so to keep wishing I could be back in the days before depression is futile. I am now putting my energy into learning to live with depression without beating myself up. It has taken me about 26 years to get to this place of acceptance.
My husband has had Crohn's for 33 years and he has never gotten past "anger" at this disease. It has changed him and he has become much of a loner so please do not let this happen to you.
I hope you start to work with PT and see if you can get some relief from your arthritis sx. I am glad it is not AS. My hubby has the arthritis sx but no AS either.
Take care and keep on talking to us.