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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/22/2009 5:20 AM (GMT -7)   
hi gang, going red, to left of some anger.
 
well, i am definately being punished by one my lady's carer, no show last fri, nor this wed, had school monday, was awake 2 days prior, slept finally tues, wed waited, and tonight another no show, well her carer is keeping her word to punish me, as well as the darn agency, sorry, i am f'n mad, oh well i hope my lady cracks it with them and bites the bullet to see me. got my metal on, this compassionate man wants to smash something, na, just extremely angry, as as much as they are punishing me, they are doing the same to my very loving lady who would be just as darn mad. i sent her a text to meet, obviously some form of intervention has happened. can not put my head on the chopping block anymore, for i will lose it, both physically, and metotphorically!!!
 
what is bloody wrong with people, heck we love each other, i will not conform to any agency, carer or family members, they have spit in my face enough!!!! sorry for he implode. and language. will be okay, i hope?
 
jamie

stkitt
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   Posted 5/22/2009 6:14 AM (GMT -7)   

Jamie,

I am so sorry you are feeling angry and that  circumstances are making your life miserable right now but remember to stay in the moment.

I am a great believer in staying in the moment which I learned in therapy. We make ourself miserable when we tend to spend a lot of time in the past or the future. We spend much time thinking about what was and what could have been. And we spend much time projecting into the future and wondering about what may happen.

This way of thinking is indeed a great way to make much of your life a lot more miserable and limited than necessary. The key to solving this problem is of course to live as much as you can in the only moment that you ever really live in and control. This moment right now. The moment that is all there ever was and - probably - will be.

Take care my friend,

Kitt


 

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   Posted 5/22/2009 8:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Jamie,

I am sorry for what you are going through. But I agree with Kitt, stay in the moment. It makes life much easier on us.

I too have been doing a lot of thinking, and have to take my own advice. So your post actually really helped me. A reminder of my way of thinking.

Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/22/2009 12:15 PM (GMT -7)   
thx kitt and karen, will do, went walk about 4 5 hrs or so, thinking about nothing really. just really frustrated, too much discrimination in this situation. hopefully my lady will take some initiative, me exhausted all avenues, folloewd all protocols, met family members even after many verbal and massive derogatory remarks and put downs, her son threatened to bash me, and do my house over in the beginning. was told i was a pervert, etc. now she is been kept away from me. will not focus on this, just hope my lady makes contact soon. can't put the phone on the hook, as i know they berate me, thus it has been of the hook for a whole year, i am sick of this!!! thought i'd explain a bit. jamie.

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   Posted 5/22/2009 2:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Jamie,

I am so sorry to hear this. Why is there so much anamosity? Why do they treat you in this way. What does your girlfriend say about it? Please let us know. Maybe we can help you with this situation. Maybe I missed something in the posts.

I hope that things work out for you and your lady. You should be together and be happy.

Hugs, Karen
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stkitt
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   Posted 5/22/2009 3:22 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey Jamie,

I too am sorry for this behavior that is being aimed at you. Please share with us if you are comfortable.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt


 

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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/24/2009 5:03 AM (GMT -7)   
simple, because of the sins of other men. that is it. a sequale of abuse. and because i am a man. and because i am less disabled than my girlfriend. all suggestions will be received with much thanks. i have decided to do nothing, if she truely wants to be with me, this i know, then it is time for her to break free and visit. sad that i have to do this, not see her at our usual place-well she hasn't been there anyway, thus it is for her to decide if she wants a fair-dinkum relationship with me or not. she well may be struggling to break free, i can no longer fight for her with this, i will when she makes a decision, then i will pull the big guns out, yet for her i need to see her fighting for me, herself, thus for us.
 
hoping you guys don't think i am being a real ******, i have pushed the boundaries to their limits, time for my lady to fight to, praying she does, she is fiesty!! love to all.
 
jamie

THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/25/2009 5:19 AM (GMT -7)   
nothing to report. no news as of yet. except i am severly depressed. some dear friends have been around as they are worried about me, yeah i am worried a little about me also. music on,
taken some relaxement meds the doc has given me. later. jamie cry cry cry

stkitt
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   Posted 5/25/2009 8:58 AM (GMT -7)   

Jamie,

Remember to keep the faith and not give up.  You have made a wise decision and now it is up to your Lady Friend to decide what she wants.  She must make up her own mind and gving her space is a good thing.

I know you are afraid and that is making you most likely feel depressed as the situation looks poor the more time that goes by but don't you give up.

Does she know how much you care about her?

I am glad you have friends that care about you and are  coming around and remember you have us to support you too. 

You are in my prayers and stay strong.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


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   Posted 5/25/2009 11:24 AM (GMT -7)   
Dear Jamie,

I'm so sorry to read about this terrible situation and the pain you've been dealing with. You have every right to be angry. I only hope that the anger will settle enough for you to get some rest and take care of yourself. You're in my prayers. Please continue to let us know how you're doing. (((hugs)))
 

 

 

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   Posted 5/25/2009 1:39 PM (GMT -7)   
Jamie,

I too am sorry about your situation. I hope that she comes through for you. I hope that she knows that you care about her. Maybe she is taking this for granted. Which is totally human. Take care of yourself and I am glad to read on your other post that you are having some good things happening this week.

Know that we all care about you.

Hugs, Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/26/2009 1:40 AM (GMT -7)   
thanx raniah, kitt, karen. yes, she knows how much i care, and how much i luv her. i tell each time i see her, and with roses, the roses i give to show i luv her, and i give them periodically, and esp if she has had a difficult week. luv 2 u all. jamie. will keep with space, in time things will happen. no further news, will advise if anything happens.
 
thx jamie

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   Posted 5/26/2009 6:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Keep your chin up Jamie, if it is meant to be, it will. Sometimes there is something else just around the corner. It sounds like her family controls her. I hope that changes soon.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 5/26/2009 8:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Jamie,

Good luck with your situation....I know it's tough. I'm glad you are able to show your girlfriend that you love her, and I'm sure she knows it with all her heart. Keep the faith.....we're here for you!
 

 

 

“If what I say resonates with you, it is merely because we are both branches on the same tree."  ~W.B. Yeats


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 5/26/2009 11:17 PM (GMT -7)   
thank you guys, your support is received with much luv. and yes she is severly controlled by her family. jamie.
 
ps keepin' me chin up!!!
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