Post Edited (Aurora60) : 5/25/2009 4:06:34 PM (GMT-6)
Korissa, It is very commendable and noble of you to work for hospice. My mother was in hospice before she passed away and the people, everyone from CNas to all the volunteers, were just the best. However, if you feel you have served your purpose and find it stressful you may want to find something else to do. Especially if you are grieving for someone you have lost. I'm afraid I don't know your story and don't want to be interfering. If you don't feel well then take the time you need to rest and recover. I guess I have the opposite problem of you. I have plenty of friends to do things with during the week. It is the weekend when everyone disappears wherever and don't include me. That is why I find weekends hard. But if I plan enough in advance I can usually catch someone to do something with. It is the holiday weekends that are hard on me. And when they aren't gone I have my sons. My oldest lives with me. He has epilepsy and is not at all independent and I am trying to teach him the things he needs to know to achieve independence. We are working on getting his bills paid in a timely way and then I need to teach him to grocery shop for the proper nutricious foods. He can cook a bit so that helps. He went to college close to home and only lived in the dorm during the week, always coming home. He asks why I didn't teach him when he was younger how to be independent but he never wanted to leave home and I had my hands full with working full time and taking care of my elderly mother. My younger son is very independent but he went away to college in AZ and he was thousands of miles away and had to learn to fend for himself. But then he is a very open, friendly and independent person. I try to explain to my older son that I didn't teach the younger one anything. He just learned on his own because he wanted to. I would like to get my son living on his own. He doesn't want a roomate so I guess we have to find him a small apt. And then I am going to move to a retirement community. I have been looking at one that I think I will really like. And then I will have plenty of people around for activities and friendships. Most places though have much older poeple in their 80s and I am 63. Still I probably wouldn't move for another 5 yrs. Well, as usual I am talking way too much and probably boring you. Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and hope you will post if you want to have a chat. Take care of yourself.