Good Morning rkeanu
Just wanted to drop in and tell you that I am thinking of you and hope you have had some good days. How you perceive your own thoughts, behaviors and functioning can help determine what's normal for you. You are a very normal person, you just happen to have a mental health disorder that you have to deal with.
So be proud of who you are and know you are a good and kind person who is going through a tough time.
Gentle hugs to you,