Update/1st Doc Appt/Med Change

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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 6/4/2009 11:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Okay, I would like to take this time to update you guys on whats been going on and why I havent been on so much. I really dont have an explanation, just that I have been distracted by myself.
 
I finally went to the doc today. I have had the appt since March 3rd so I wasnt going to miss it. It was interesting. We talked for about an hour or so.. It seemed easier talking to him now that I have been seeing my therapist for a few months. I feel I did a good job explaining things to him. I did a good job cause he asked how I felt and when I said nervous.. he said he couldnt even tell. I have gotten better at talking.. and Im good at hiding my nerves!
 
Anyways, he said it was too early for him to be certain but he said he "thought" he could narrow it down to what I could have. Other than a simple depression anxiety.. etc. But, one interesting thing was he showed me a book and let me read 2 parts. One was dysthymia(sp?) and the other borderline personality. Crazy, cause at one point I thought I had borderline.... too much research. But, it was ironic. I seem to fit the other better, but have signs from each.. so, he said not to hold him accountable right now for a diagnoses.
 
Moving along, I take Paxil and it helped my social anxiety. Well, I made the choice to get off it and try something else. So, I have to quit taking it... basically cold turkey. And once I tried that because I had already missed 2 days in a row and thats about the half-life and I started feeling HORRIBLE and thats when I realized I had missed taking it... Well, he made it VERY clear that I will feel (in his words, bluntly) "AWFUL." And, thats true because I know.. And he gave me a script for Cymbalta. Or whatever the generic is... and when I quit my Paxil and give myself a few days to feel AWFUL, then I can start taking it... I have to go back in a week to see his nurse. And 3 weeks to see him.
 
I am kind of nervous about it because I have never had a bad reaction to anything before and I hear so much about peoples reaction to these type of meds and to be honest, Im kind of scared of how I will take it. I mean, the reality of getting off one and feeling bad and then starting another and not knowing how it will make me feel has really hit me.. So, Im very nervous, yet anxious, to start it. I dont want to have the extreme side effects like im jumping out of my skin or suicidal thoughts and craziness ya know... I can handle nausea and sleepiness and all that. But, never had to deal with the extreme so Im scared..
 
Well, I always to make these short, but I always fail... So, thats basically everything for now. Thanks
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
www.myspace.com/wilson_gal22
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."


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   Posted 6/4/2009 1:46 PM (GMT -7)   
The good thing about this Christi is that you will be seeing him again soon. And his nurse even sooner. And I am sure that is you have an adverse reaction that you can call his office and get ahold of somebody to give you advice. Cymbalta will help with the pain of the fibromyalgia and that is good.

Make sure to let us know how you are doing when you get rolling on this. And remember that we are all here for you.

Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen

PS it is natural to feel nervous over a medication change. We all have a fear of the unknown. I think that you will do fine. Keep thinking positive. I take a medication where suicidal thoughts can be a side effect, but have never experienced that.
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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 6/4/2009 3:51 PM (GMT -7)   
I also forgot to mention that it was 2 years ago today, the anniversary so-to-speak, that I became very depressed and it has lasted since then.. Basically since I hit rock bottom. I had issues before that, but it never became a problem until then.. So, it was kind of nice knowing that after what seems like a lifetime that I was finally getting some real help..

Its weird actually. I have felt that way before, but I am afraid of what it "could" do. I dont know... its just weird for me to be scared of taking something. Ive never had a reaction of any kind so I think my chances are a little better for that. Plus, I have always been willing to try most anything... and I still am. Just more cautious than usual, which isnt like me.

Well, anyways, I will let you know how it goes. I have to survive the PAxil withdrawal first.. it was pretty bad the time I missed it for 2 days so... Im not looking forward to it, but I know it will be worth it in the end.
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
www.myspace.com/wilson_gal22
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."


getting by
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   Posted 6/4/2009 7:09 PM (GMT -7)   
I guess that there is only one way to know Christi and that is what you are doing. Trying. I commend you for that. It is hard to go off of a medication that you are use to so that you can try something else. But we are all here for you and wish you the best. Just keep your doctor's number close by and go from there. You can do this. You have overcome so much in the last two years. This is just another step forward.

Hugs, Karen
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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 6/4/2009 7:51 PM (GMT -7)   
Your right. And I wouldnt ever back down from a challenge. Im scared that it will make me like crazy...and something bad will happen. But, I am ready to take that chance. And I think I can be responsible with this. I will be. Hopefully nothing like that will happen, but in the event that it does, I am ready to handle it. Its just a test stage... it could work, or not and I know that.. so, I am ready for it.

Something MUST be wrong with me.. I am SO forgetful today lol... I forgot to mention that he gave me some samples of Rozerem to try..to help my sleep. Its been awful lately. I have been getting in bed and lying there for at least 2 hours, tossing and turning before I fall asleep. I wake up a few times. And I usually sleep in and feel even worse. I hate it. School kept me well trained in my routine. I am going to keep myself on a schedule. Getting up around the same time and going to bed around the same time. I always do better at night and during the summer I ALWAYS end up switching my night and day, and thats not good since the world doesnt work with that! lol So...hopefully this will help me. I took one about 30 minutes ago. I am sleepy, was before a little though since I got up early for doc appt.


I have to get up slightly early in the morning for a hair appt. So... goodbye, and thanks!
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
www.myspace.com/wilson_gal22
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."


getting by
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   Posted 6/5/2009 7:38 AM (GMT -7)   
I am glad that he gave you those samples. As you already know with fibro, it is so important that you get proper sleep.

I think that this is really a step forward and I hope that your new medications work well for you.

I haven't been on the forum much Christi, I got a job. So I am pretty busy. I am glad that you posted when you did because it was my day off. I have to go in this afternoon to work. So if I miss a post that is why. But you can still always email me if you want to. I do check them daily.

Hugs to you,

Keep me posted on this med change even if you have to email me, I check them late, but I do check them.

Luv Karen
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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 6/5/2009 7:14 PM (GMT -7)   
I wasnt planning on taking any of the sleep meds last night cause I had a hair appt this morning... And I wanted to be able to wake up and go! And, I didnt want to have any next day affects.
 
But, I took one. I was sleepy within an hour and got in bed. I didnt have to fight falling asleep like usual, which was nice. I slept good all night. I woke up once early right before I was getting up anyways, so that was okay. But, when I got up I felt sick to my stomach for a while... I had some stomach pains..but nothing happened and it eventually went away after a little bit and I was okay... So, it wasnt so bad.
 
I probably wont be on much the next few days, perhaps. I know it will hit me sometime tomorrow around the evening... Paxil withdrawal. I have experienced it before when I forgot to take it 2 days... I quit today so it will most likely be late tomorrow or Sunday around lunch before I start feeling awful.
 
My new doc kind of got close to my face and emphasized that I would feel "AWFUL" and that he was sorry I was going to suffer. Thanks... that didnt scare me at all.... hmm So, I have experienced withdrawal once before, but I never just quit so I dont know if it will only be that bad, or if it gets worse... So.. Im nervous.
 
I warned everyone that I would be sick the next few days. And then I might be a little weird and will need watching the next few days after that because I will be starting the Cymbalta. And I see the nurse on Thursday to make sure Im okay. BUT, Im worried, I am leaving for vacation on Friday morning. 8 hour drive to Florida. BEACH! I cant wait but I REALLY hope I dont have any side effects that keep me from having a good time.
 
I am praying it doesnt mess with my stomach or anything...or we will be having to stop at every exit and we will never make it to the beach... it would make for a horrible trip.. so...
 
anyways, thanks for being here for me... I know I am going to need it the next week or two... I am going to be going through some changes that may not be pleasant so, I know I will need someone who understands.
 
And I hope the new job is going well! Hope your body is handling it and it is all that you were hoping for! Congrats!
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
www.myspace.com/wilson_gal22
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."


getting by
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   Posted 6/6/2009 7:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Christi,

Yes you are going to go through a lot with the withdrawals, but it sounds like your friends and family will be good support. And you got me too. I am glad that your doctor will be close by.

I hope that you have a good time in Florida. Suntan time, unless you already have one... I don't tan well, but maybe if I go to Florida someday I will get one. I am really excited for you.

The job is going well, though I am sore on my days off. And sore this morning. I have to work today alone for my first time. I have been alone before, but this time I have the whole shift to myself. Wish me luck. I am nervous. But I will do the best that I can.

I spend most of my days off sleeping. Hopefully my body will adapt to this and I can enjoy my days off.

Christi, I am glad that the medication helped you sleep. You need good sleep. I take ambien, it gives me a more restful sleep. I can sleep all the time and still be tired. But it sounded like this worked well for you. Except for the nausea this morning. But I am glad that went away.

I understand that you wont be around for a few days, so I hope that everything goes well for you.

Take care my friend.

Have a great time in Florida. I do keep up with you on Facebook.

Hugs, Karen
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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 6/6/2009 11:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks... I am already starting to feel sick so..
Lyrica(15 months on, but now officially off of it!) and Paxil(about 6+- months)
Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks-currently in therapy
www.myspace.com/wilson_gal22
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."

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