I’m really glad that you have friends in your life and a job that you love. I would hate to see you jeopardize those things by drinking heavily and acting irrationally because of it. I can see in your post that you already realize that your drinking causes problems in your relationships, and that it causes you to behave in ways that are unhealthy and antisocial. I am certainly not a professional…..I am just a member here, like you are…..but I can tell you from personal experience that heavy drinking makes everything worse…..the depression, the obsessive or irrational thoughts and behaviour
s, and the emotional chaos that you experience inside. I hope you will give some serious thought to quitting the alcohol. I agree with Karen about
the counseling….it could really help you to cope with the problems and feelings that cause you to drink this heavily in the first place, and IMO, that is an important first step to getting your life back on track.
Please give it some thought, and know that there are people here who understand and really care about
you and your situation. I hope you will come back and post some more for support, and let us know how things are going.
Moderator, Depression Forum
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