I’m sorry you’re feeling so alone and sad right now. You came to a great place to talk, as I’m sure you know…..everyone here is really supportive and compassionate.
I think it’s natural to feel afraid when you leave the hospital….it’s a safe, controlled environment where you have people to check on you and talk to you about
things. I know it’s hard for family members to relate when they haven’t been through it themselves, but it seems like your family members really care and want to support you in whatever way they can!
You say that everyone says you’re getting better, and that’s probably true, even if you can’t see it or feel it. It’s hard for us to be objective about
our own situation. Believe that things are improving, and tell yourself, out loud if you need to, that you are getting better every day. Keep telling yourself that over and over, as much as you need to. It’s a positive affirmation for you, and you might be surprised how much comfort you can gain from focusing positively like that. You WILL feel better, and you must not give up hope!
I’m glad you’re seeing a new therapist today, and a doctor tomorrow, and I hope it goes really well. Please let us know how it goes when you feel up to it! Don’t give up, April…..you have the strength to do this, and you will get better, doing it one step at a time. (((hugs)))
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“No one is as capable of gratitude as one who has emerged from the kingdom of night.” ~Elie Wiesel