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Michael - SA/TX
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Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 23
   Posted 6/22/2009 3:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello everyone!

My name is Michael, and I wanted to take a moment to introduce myself, and give just a bit of information about myself. I'm posting this in every category that I'm going to become a member of. Please moderators, if I've done something wrong, let me know. I know that not everyone will be viewing this category - and I want to introduce myself to the entire community. I have a long list of issues I've dealt with, and am currently dealing with. The opportunity to reach out to others, to be helped, and maybe to help - brings a smile to my face, of which doesn't happen often. Within this posting, I have briefly explained some of my issues. I appreciate all that read it, and get back to me. Although all these things we deal with are horrible, we've all been handed something different for a reason. I'm unaware of what that is - but as I walk down the road of life, I have every faith that one day I'll realize why I've gone through what I have.

I'm a 26 year old male, that lives in San Antonio, Texas.

I have a variety of health problems, including:
* Chronic Pain
* Nerve Damage
* GI Issues
* Migraine / Bleeding Problems
* Seizure Disorders
* Respiratory / Breathing Issues (Spontaneous Pneumothorax / COPD)
* Anxiety / Depression / Insomnia
* ADHD
* Heat Flashes

* Chronic Pain - The chronic pain issues that I face, tend to go hand and hand with the respiratory problems that I'm facing to this day. When I was in my very early 20's - right about 20, I began to suffer from a condition that led to Spontaneous Pneumothroax. Basically, I had small air pockets on my lungs called blebs, which made the lining of my lungs weak, and lead to them "popping" - and air escaping into my chest cavity. The one way to fix this, is to have a chest dart inserted between your breast bones, and have the air "sucked out" by a vacuum. After dealing with this over three times and not having any corrective surgery. I elected to have surgery. The first surgery, although be it painful, was quite successful - and I left the hospital. Within two weeks, the other lung then began to act up. I went through a total of two major lung surgeries, having 1/3 of each lung taken out - and the lung itself "stapled" to the inside of my rib cage. Once this happened, if the lung did pop, it wouldn't be as successful at collapsing 100% - and gave me a better chance of healing, and not having a life threatening emergency. Because so much of my lungs were taken out, I ended up developing COPD, and Asthma at my age. To help my breathing I take Asmanex 220mcg, Combivent, Proventil, and Singulair. I've been prescribed many other things for breathing, but with county insurance, I'm limited to what I can take - what's on the formulary. These breathing problems ended up developing Chronic pain. Along the ribs, where the surgery took place; but on the second surgery I suffered a bad epideral - leaving me with constant pain; that leaves me taking pills just to function. Without medication, I'm unable to move around - get out of bed - or even eat. Methadone at 10mg, three times a day - along with Baclofen, 20mg three times a day allows me to move around; but the pain is great, and ever present. I never thought life would be so hard, making you grit your teeth just to get through the day. Tears come to my eyes, and self pity rises, but one must rise above all that...be it difficult...and some days impossible. The medicaiton deadens the pain to a certain extent, some days making it tolerable, and other days not feeling like it's doing much good. I feel old beyond my years, 26 and trapped in a failing body; but I have life - unlike some. I try to see to the other side of the rainbow - but sometimes that rainbow seems so far in the distance, rain clouds and lightening blocking it from view. I have faith that one day we'll find a proper combination, or some massive medical breakthrough; when that day comes, maybe they'll make me good enough to dance in the street, instead of walk slowly while stumbling. My back seems to be my major problem. Although my neck does bother me, my back seems to take the cake - and outweigh everything else. Hurting to the touch - and constantly locked up. At times I feel like I have a metal bar, running the length of my back - the muscles so tight you could lay me down and use me as a bridge over a puddle.

* Nerve Damage - The nerve damage has not fully been diagnosed as to what has caused it, and what will cure it. I find a lot of doctors simply shrugging their shoulders at me. We've tried every medication in the book! It seems to be limited to my left side, leaving my leg crawling, burning, itching - and sensation not near what it should be. It seems to be the worst at night. At times, it will feel like there is a colony of fire ants crawling on my leg, and arm. Biting and stinging, like they're trying to take a piece of me away, eating me alive. The spasms, which I feel is related to the damage, can become ruthless. Twitching, my leg seems to have a mind of its own! I awake in the middle of the night, to what feels like a full blown "shock and awe" on my leg. Burning, itching, throbbing, twitching, and spasming; I'm forced to try to get up and walk around - work out the problem, all in vain. It stops, when it wants to stop - it starts, when it wants to start - never consulting me first. What is also odd, are the spots on my leg / arm that seem to bother the most, don't actually get "goose bumps" when the rest of my body does. I'll look down - and boom, the parts that bother me are smooth, while the rest of the leg / arm has goose bumps all over it. The spot where the bad epideral took place, is also so very sensitive to the touch - even my shirt rubbing upon my back at times will feel like someone sticking me with a poker, straight out of the flames of hell! Currently, I am awaiting a MAP of Lyrica to see if this will help. Gabapentin and Amitriptyline have not been effective in management.

( How this epideral became bad - During my second lung surgery, I elected to have an epideral because I was told it would deaden all pain, and I would be much more comfortable. I was informed - it would be a "fusion" epideral. Well, once I woke up back in my room after the surgery, I felt something wet all over my back. The epideral had come out of my spine, and was leaking the medication all over my back. The charge nurse assigned to me, but the epideral back in my back several times - a total of 5. Each time this took place the pain, stabbing, burning - became worse until I was screaming for my life. I couldn't stand the pain any longer, and the doctor was called. They were furious, took me off the epideral - and assigned a demerol PCA pump for 96 hours)

* GI Issues - Since I've been a child, I was always known as "the puker". I would vomit when the wind changed direction. Hospitalized quite a bit for vomitting for days, no one has been able to find the true cause for this problem. I've spent so much time in the hospital due to being dyhydrated to vomitting days on end. Some may say it's a nervous stomach, I know that the constant, and horrid pain has something that impacts this. I had an indiception (sp) not to long ago, a total of 2 times. I've heard some doctors tell me that this is odd for someone that has become an adult. This happens when your intestines telescope upon one another, and knot up...not comfortable. I had been to the emergency room for 3 months in a row, every 2 weeks - so one (of the many) hospitals in town - did another (one of hundreds) of scans - and decided to take out my gallbladder. Well, this was in vain! Not only did I get a bit of an infection, I stayed in the hospital for two weeks over such a minor surgery - more battle scars! Now, I live on Protonix 80mg, and Phenergan 25mg 4 times daily - to control the nausea so that I can hopefully stay home. It's amazing how so much can bottle up and cause GI problems. Pain, stress, anxiety - they all contribute to a vicious cycle that seems to never end. A nightmare that I've not been able to wake from; one day I'll find my beauty rest, and be well.

* Migraine / Bleeding problems - Now, I know this is an odd one to go in for a mix. I began to develop these horrible headaches, about two years ago. One day, I realized my vision was getting blurry, and I tasted a very strong "iron" taste in my mouth. I couldn't hear very well, and I felt - "loopy" - my room mate then informed me that I was bleeding. My eyes, my nose, and my ears - had blood slowly dripping out of them. I couldn't see, because my eyes actually had blood in them. It looked like something from the exorcist - yeah, call me the next Emily Rose. Doctors have run CT, MRI, and ENT has looked and probed all those parts...Imitrex 25mg, 1 tablet, followed by 1 tablet every 8 hours not to exceed 8 tablets in 24 hours; seems to help. It keeps the headaches at bay, and once these are at bay - the bleeding seems to not sneak up upon me as quickly, if at all. I suppose, other than totally freaking myself, and others out - it's not been a real big issue. The headaches, which I call migraines can snap me to the floor. Vomitting, every noise sounds like it's popping your ear drums, and of course light - all impact them, and make you want to rip your head off. The only good thing? ENT cleaned out my ears...buh bye waxy buildup! Propanolol 40mg twice daily is supposed to help with the headaches, as well as lower my blood pressure.

* Seizure Disorder - Now, this one is ever present, yet tends to hide. Years ago, I began to have, very odd feelings, loose track of time, and wake up hurting - feeling very odd. Long story short, I would go into a seizure - my body afterward feeling like it had been run over by a fleet of city buses! Due to these being uncontrolled by many medications - I was forced to wear a bicycle helmet, and sell my car for about two years. They come, and they go - at times I have a warning feeling - may it be bright light, however more than not - a very strange smell, and just a weird feeling. When these first began, I had so much going on - that I declined going into the Neurodiagnostic center at the hospital. So much had gone wrong, and continued to go wrong - I was scared, I didn't want to face another demon. Now, they're called psuedoseizures. In my head? I've read that's what it means...but I believe it also means, not diagnosed. A figment of my imagination, my nervous and emotional centers breaking down; needless to say - it doesn't matter. They're real...I spasm, I choke...I've hurt myself. Dilantin didn't help, Gabapentin didn't help - Depakote didn't help...so now, we just hope they don't happen. I average, maybe one a month now. Although not as severe as in the past, certainly not requiring a helmet - it's still a curse...and one I wish I could do without.

* Respiratory / Breathing - I went into this topic up on my chronic pain, as they seem to be going hand in hand - the breathing issues are what developed the chronic pain, or I should say - the bad epideral. The inhaled steroid, Asmanex, I haven't seen much of a difference with - and I still find myself reaching for my inhaler. The blebs were a congenital defect - bad genes, something my father passed down to me I've been told. The COPD and Ashtma are a direct result of the lung disease, and mainly the surgery. A huge intolerance to the cold - and very high humidity makes this unbearable at times. I'm unable to exercise, not only due to the pain, but due to not being able to get much air in! Although my breathing tests have come out well, when you're missing parts of your lung, it's very clear how your breathing would be impaired. The odd thing, is although my lungs have collapsed - up to 80% at times, my O2 Satruation never went below 95% - going to the ER with chest pain can be such a pain; not only am in the ER - but my O2 will be just fine. Many times, I'll feel unable to breathe, and request oxygen because it helps with the pain - but be denied such a thing b/c of the O2 readings. I explain what has happened, and my personal experience with my body - yet it makes no difference. Some doctors have the "GOD" syndrome, I suppose that's what happens to some when you feel like you can perform miracles. The Proventil seems to be ineffective for helping my breathing anymore, the Asmanex, I've only been on for one month, so I don't feel much of a difference on it. Combivent has always helped, and is my personal inhaler of choice - yet it's not covered by my insurance, and unubtainable at the current price. There are other medications that have been prescribed, but if it's not on the formulary - I simply can't come close to affording such a thing. Singulair has been started with me again, so we'll see how it helps breathing, and allergies.

* Anxiety / Depression / Insomnia / ADHD - Well, in a way I feel like these all go hand in hand. Anxiety is a horrible thing, but then again, so is anything that you are forced to deal with when your body doesn't seem to work quite right. I can be in a crowd, and get so anxious I want to bury my head in the sand. My chest gets tight, my pain gets worse, and its hard to breathe. What do I find myself doing during anxiety? A stupid thing considering my problems, I smoke - and I smoke to much. Smoking helps with the anxiety, but also the pain. I know I should learn some coping techniques, and hopefully soon I will. My stomach will knot up - and I will get sit to my stomach. I'll stutter when I try to speak - unable to find the words to come out of my mouth. Depression has set in since my lungs first began to go out. Being my age, and unable to do what my piers can do - is very disheartening to say the least. I feel like a failure, I feel like - I can't love anyone, the way they need to be loved, because I don't really seem to love myself any longer. I have an angel in my life, and I know this - but sometimes, I push them away. Not wanting to leave the house much anymore, and not wanting to talk to anyone; I know the depression is worsening, and I have to do something about it. I don't remember what true happiness feels like any longer. The depression impacts the anxiety - and also makes the pain worse. It can kill my appetite to where I will no longer eat much, or it can make me ravenous; like a monster wanting to eat everything in sight - sometimes I feel like a bear about to squat for the winter, need to build up that belly...after all this, I look in the mirror and I'm unhappy because I'm to fat, or to skinny. I don't remember the last time I had an inbetween. Anxiety / Depression, well they also lead to insomnia. I can go for weeks without getting a proper nights sleep, this impacts the anxiety, depression, and pain. The cycle never ends. When I can get sleep - I seem to dream, and the dreams I've been having aren't pleasant. My mind wonders, and never stays. I've been diagnosed with Ruminition of thought - whatever this may mean. When I was younger, I was told I had ADHD - it's impossible for me to concentrate on anything. I can sit down, and within 2 minutes of watching TV, I'm going to my PC, or messing with my smart phone. Always having to fiddle, be busy, do something. Finishing a task is nearly impossible, I don't remember the last time I finished something I started. I always remember growing up, being told to finish what I started; didn't happen then, hasn't happened now. Concentration doesn't exist with me - and I always thought it was something I would outgrow...maybe not.

* Heat Flashes / Sweating - Now, these are horrible. It can be 70, and due to the pain, nausea, and other problems, I feel like I'm about to burst into flames. Sweat pours from every pore of my body, and I can be soaked like I just walked out of the shower. We've looked at so many different causes, and everything has checked out fine. I suppose I'm a 26 year old male that's experiencing mentapause (grins) - I find myself changing shirts, a couple times a day - and constantly wiping off my forehead. Taking a shower, getting ready, and then feeling dirty because I've been sweating is awful! It also doesn't help that here in the south we have heat like it's coming out of a furnace! Although, when I've been up north in the Winter, the same thing happens - what's worse, being hot and wet, or cold and wet? They seem to be the same to me. Talk about an electric bill at that - when you have to have your house constantly cool to be comfortable, it's rough on the pocket book.

I've been able to work for quite sometime, about five years now; and finally I've hired a lawyer in town to fight for my social security. I never wanted to get on the program before, because - it felt like it hurt my pride. I always said, I'll get better, but this has been 5 / 6 years, and I'm not getting better. One thing leaves, another comes - and then what left, returns. I feel like a revolving door in a business building, in and out, in and out.

I had filed for social security on many occassions, however - was always denied. At my age, it's not an easy task.

Luckily, my best friend's uncle has let me live where I am now, and I have a place to stay. I'm one of the lucky few. I've been blessed to have at least one person that's cared for me, and I know that's a blessing - many have no one, at least I have one, and I couldn't ask for anything more.

It's been a pleasure meeting you all, and I look forward to speaking, and getting to know more of you very well.

I do have more issues, and I'm sorry this has been like a book. I've been told, I need to let go, I need to get things out. I'm trying, and I hope my first attempt hasn't failed, or upset anyone.

Post Edited (Michael - SA/TX) : 6/22/2009 5:06:19 PM (GMT-6)


Steelcody36
Regular Member


Date Joined May 2009
Total Posts : 85
   Posted 6/22/2009 6:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Michael, I'm sorry that you have been through so much already. I am a 21 year old male and I have GERD and what I think is severe depression and anxiety. Really no health issues other than that that are too serious, although the acid sometimes swells my throat up and I cannot swallow or lie down without gagging.
 
I truly hope that somebody can help treat your symptoms and that you will find a cure for what you are going through.
 
Take it easy man,
 
Cody

Raniah
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Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 1190
   Posted 6/22/2009 6:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Michael,

I'm really glad you came here, and I want to welcome you to the forum. I have to admit that I will need to re-read the details of your post when it is not so late here....and I will write a proper reply to you tomorrow.....but one thing did strike me upon first reading, and I would like to address it tonight. You have talked about your isolation, and not wanting to talk to anyone, but I sense that you really do want comfort and support, and I have to say, from my own experience, this is a wonderful place to get it. You are no longer alone in your struggles.

Please do come back and participate with us....it's a great group of warm, accepting people.
 
 
Moderator, Depression Forum
 
“Sadness is but a wall between two gardens.”  ~Kahlil Gibran

 

 


Michael - SA/TX
Regular Member


Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 23
   Posted 6/22/2009 6:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Cody,

Thanks - I really appreciate it.

Although personally the acid in my stomach doesn't effect me in that way - mine upsets my stomach so much to the point of nausea like you wouldn't believe that can end up to vomitting and in the hospital for a few days.

The other major problem with mine is due to the lung problems that I've gone through - when it builds up to much in my stomach, it makes a "mach" feeling like a lung has collapsed. To much air in the stomach is very hard to tell the difference from really any air in the chest cavity...sometimes making it hard to breathe.

I hope that yours gets under control, and they can administer some type of medication to make it tolerable.

Protonix seems to work very well for me...I used to take Prevacid on top of it, but since have just moved over to Protonix 40mg twice daily. It seems to be effective and long lasting.

I appreciate your words, and hope things are woring for you.

With everything that's been going on, and is still going on; I would say I'm definately falling back down into depression. It's been probably a year since I last picked myself up off the floor - and I feel like I'm starting to go back towards that cliff again.

Silly as it sounds, lately I've been finding myself turning the radio off with a lot of songs, and turning the television for the slightest things...

...to much seems to be weighing on me, and bringing me down way to easily.
- Michael
- 26 Years Old
- Male
- San Antonio, Texas - USA

* Chronic Pain / Nerve Damage / Neuropathy
* Seizure D/O
* Migraines / Bleeding
* Anxiety / Depression / Insomnia / ADHD
* Respiratory Issues - Asthma, COPD, Lung Disease (Pneumothroax Disorder)
* Hot Flashes / Sweating

* Methadone / 10mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Baclofen / 20mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Ibuprofen / 600mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Tylenol / 650mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Propranolol / 40mg / Twice daily for migraine, B/P
* Protonix / 40mg / Twice daily for acid buildup, nausea
* Buspirone / 5mg / 3 times daily for anxiety
* Singulair / 10mg / Evening for breathing
* Phenergan / 25mg / 4 times daily for nausea
* Flonase / Allergies
* Imitrex / 25mg at onset for migraine, 1 tablet every 2 hours not to exceed 8 tablets in 24 hours
* Proventil / Asthma, COPD
* Asmanex / 220mcg / Asthma, COPD
* Combivent / Asthma, COPD


getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40590
   Posted 6/22/2009 6:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Michael,

Welcome to the HealingWell depression forum. I must say that your post was very long. It took two readings for me to get through it. I hope that doesn't make it hard for the other members to answer your post.

I know that it is best to leave the past behind and get on with our lives. But I think it was good for you to get all of this down. It might bring things into perspective for you.

I have to say Quit Smoking!!! With lung problems like yours, smoking is going to make you feel tired and also restricts the oxygen to your blood and you are going to be in more pain. That would be probably the best thing that you could do for yourself right now. In fact I would say that it is problematic for you to smoke. You need to get out and walk. Gradually building up your strength.

Learn to stay in the moment. I take a medication called abilify to help me with that. It contolls my obsessive thinking. Also is a mood stabilizer. Talk to your doctor about that.

CBT is also very helpful for acquiring mindfulness. You need to be able to concentrate on the task at hand. You will find that it unclogs your mind and it is easier to think and remember things. So think about counseling for that.

I hope that you feel better soon. I know that you will be able to benefit from coming here. But please make your posts shorter. Take things one issue at a time. It is so much easier for us to read. And you will get more responses that way.

Best wishes to you.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40590
   Posted 6/22/2009 6:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi again Michael,

I do have to mention that the administrator wants us to keep our signature down to ten lines at the most. Due to bandwidth or something like that. So please shorten your signature to ten lines or less. Sorry about that.

I am so glad that you have come here and joined us. You will get a lot of support here. Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 6/22/2009 8:20 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello Michael,
 
Welcome to HealingWell.  I am so sorry to see you have so many problems.
 
As members have responded to your post in some of the other 4 forums you have posted identical posts in I will leave your posts intact in those forums but ask that when you are posting re depression you post it here and not in the Asthma forum and epilepsy forum too.  Your post is very extensive and covers 5 different forums  plus you have some GERD issues also.
 
Due to trying saving the amount of bandwidth used on the forum the Administration does ask that we do not post excessively long posts or duplicates.
 
Also as Karen mentioned please do shorten up your signature to be sure  it takes up no more then 10 lines which includes spaces.
 
Thank you in advance for your understanding and please do review the rules and guidelines for HW.
 
I will address your issues in one of the other forums.
 
Respectfully
Kitt
 
 

Kitt,
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Raniah
Veteran Member


Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 1190
   Posted 6/23/2009 9:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello again, Michael,

I’ve had a chance to re-read your post, as I promised I would, and I will share my thoughts with you with the hope that you will gain some support. I can see that you are dealing with a lot of heavy issues, and it’s understandable why you would feel depressed.

I agree with the idea that we’ve all been handed our challenges for a reason. I think all of us have a purpose in our lives, and living through challenges is a means of directing us to fulfilling that purpose.

It’s hard when you feel older than your years, and I am encouraged to see that you have faith that some day, you will have the necessary meds and/or therapies to help you with your issues. Holding onto faith is crucial when you are struggling with any illness, including depression. I’m especially inspired by your positive outlook, after the medical foul-ups and disappointments you’ve experienced, such as the bad epidural….not to mention the doctors with the “GOD” syndrome, as you’ve called it. You have taught me something already by writing about this. I struggle with resentment over my many bad experiences with medical professionals, and I really need to let that go.

It’s true that pain, stress and anxiety can cause or contribute to a lot of physical illnesses. It’s good that you recognize that mind-body connection, and I think helping one definitely helps the other. I think you may be wise beyond your years, perhaps due to all that you have endured so far in your life. It’s also true that regular, good quality sleep is a necessary factor, and I hope so much that this will be remedied along with your other troubling symptoms. I have had problems with insomnia for my entire life, and I’ve had to work really hard to regulate my sleep patterns. It’s an ongoing process.

As I said to you in my earlier post, I can see that despite your inclination towards isolation, you really do want some comfort and support, and I truly hope you will find it on the HW forums. I have found so much understanding and compassion here, words cannot describe.

I do hope that your lawyer will be successful in getting you the Social Security benefits that you obviously need in order to move forward with your life. My heart really goes out to you, and I have to thank you for teaching me so much already, and for enlightening me by sharing your struggles and your insights. I look forward to reading more from you.
 
 
Moderator, Depression Forum
 
“Sadness is but a wall between two gardens.”  ~Kahlil Gibran

 

 


duck
New Member


Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 17
   Posted 6/23/2009 12:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Michael,I am so sorry for all that you have gone through. I am a cancer survivor and struggle with depression. I agree with the others keep your hope and faith. I can relate to what you are feeling when you can't do things your peers do. I get frustarted with myself when I can't participate in activities with my teenagers . They don't understand why mom now has to nap everyday. You seem very wise for your age. One thing a fellow cancer survivor told me was need to accept and learn to live with our new normal. When I can do that I feel so much more peaceful. You are in my prayers, Duck

THE HAPPY TURTLE
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Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 18762
   Posted 6/25/2009 4:41 AM (GMT -7)   
dear michael, welcome, i am jamie, male 37.
 
due to concentration issues i could not read all your post, sorry, but it is something that happens on larger posts. so apologies. i just wanted to say that a lot has happened to you, i hope that things improve for you. i have a few issues myself, thus the stuff that is better i do not focus on too much and the stuff that does i prioritise. remember that you are a unique human being of this earth with special talents and gifts that only you have. thx 4 posting, and keep doing so, i look forward to sharing with you. jamie.

Michael - SA/TX
Regular Member


Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 23
   Posted 6/26/2009 9:08 AM (GMT -7)   
I do want to apologize for any long postings that I may do. It seems when you're full of hot air and type hundreds of words a minute the words tend to flow out like a broken dam.

The last few days haven't been well - so it's taken me some time to respond.

Hopefully I'll get around to answering everything; but in the meantime I wanted to let everyone know how much I appreciate their time and kind words; and how I'm looking forward to being a member!
- Michael
- 26 Years Old
- Male
- San Antonio, Texas - USA

* Chronic Pain / Nerve Damage / Neuropathy
* Seizure D/O
* Migraines / Bleeding
* Anxiety / Depression / Insomnia / ADHD
* Respiratory Issues - Asthma, COPD, Lung Disease (Pneumothroax Disorder)
* Hot Flashes / Sweating

* Methadone / 10mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Baclofen / 20mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Ibuprofen / 600mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Tylenol / 650mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Propranolol / 40mg / Twice daily for migraine, B/P
* Protonix / 40mg / Twice daily for acid buildup, nausea
* Buspirone / 5mg / 3 times daily for anxiety
* Singulair / 10mg / Evening for breathing
* Phenergan / 25mg / 4 times daily for nausea
* Flonase / Allergies
* Imitrex / 25mg at onset for migraine, 1 tablet every 2 hours not to exceed 8 tablets in 24 hours
* Proventil / Asthma, COPD
* Asmanex / 220mcg / Asthma, COPD
* Combivent / Asthma, COPD


getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 40590
   Posted 6/26/2009 9:33 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Michael,

I am sorry that you haven't been feeling good. But I am glad that you posted today. I hope that you start feeling better soon. Remember that when you don't feel good, sometimes it does you good to come here and talk about it.

I am sorry but I have to mention that you need to shorten your signature down to ten lines or less. Maybe you could take out the medication part.

Thanks in advance.

Keep us posted on how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


Michael - SA/TX
Regular Member


Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 23
   Posted 6/26/2009 9:45 AM (GMT -7)   
gettin by,

Thank you for your kind words; and also your words in being in compliance with the TOS of the site.

I've now combined things to be a bit shorter, and I believe I counted 10 lines...if I'm still making a mistake - please let me know.

I know you'll have good days, and I know you'll have bad days...I wouldn't have thought today would be a bad day though.

I keep having nightmares, and I know that the fight with social security that I'm going through is taking a toll on my emotional well being. I finally hired a lawyer as for the last 3 years they've not taken me seriously - and I've basically been a charity case to everyone.

Unable to work, I've had to take hand outs just to get by...

...unable to work the state ALSO made me take food stamps; which has made me feel less than...no offense to anyone. It just, makes me feel worthless in a way. I know that's silly, and I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I don't like feeling like a degenerate....taking advantage of the system...

Everything bottles up...and manifests more into depression, anxiety, etc. which also aggravates the pain.

June 30th I go to see a counselor - my PM&R doctors have requested that I do. Hopefully I'll get lucky and she'll help me out without sending me to psychiatry - although with the way I've began to feel, a downward spiral - I wouldn't be surprised if I ended up in psychiatry...

...it's just even more irritating when you can't seem to screw your head on your shoulders yourself; and you feel like you're starting to lose control.

Depression had become a thing of the past, but it's back...like a good friend.
- Michael
- 26 Years Old
- Male
- San Antonio, Texas - USA

* Chronic Pain / Nerve Damage / Neuropathy
* Seizure D/O
* Migraines / Bleeding
* Anxiety / Depression / Insomnia / ADHD
* Respiratory Issues - Asthma, COPD, Lung Disease (Pneumothroax Disorder)
* Hot Flashes / Sweating

* Methadone / 10mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Baclofen / 20mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Ibuprofen / 600mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Tylenol / 650mg / 3 times daily for pain
* Propranolol / 40mg / Twice daily for migraine, B/P
* Protonix / 40mg / Twice daily for acid buildup, nausea
* Buspirone / 5mg / 3 times daily for anxiety
* Singulair / 10mg / Evening for breathing
* Phenergan / 25mg / 4 times daily for nausea
* Flonase / Allergies
* Imitrex / 25mg at onset for migraine, 1 tablet every 2 hours not to exceed 8 tablets in 24 hours
* Proventil / Asthma, COPD
* Asmanex / 220mcg / Asthma, COPD
* Combivent / Asthma, COPD

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