Everyone who has been replying to my posts, you keep asking if I have an adult in my life who I can talk to and telling me it would be good for me if I did.Well, he's not really a true experienced adult,but he's experienced enough.I finally found someone to confide in.Actually, I didn't realize until last week that he is the one I always go to for help.His name is Michael, but I call him "TWIN", because we are so alike in our mind-set and perspectives on life.He is the cousin of my boyfriend.I have always gone to him for everthing.I have talked to him about my boyfriend,my feelings about the whole forbidden situation,about conflict at school,about everyday temptations,about drugs,and even about sex.Basically about everything I should be talking to my mom about.
We have been knowing each other for about 3 years.I met him even before I met my boyfriend.I used to be attracted to him when we first met, but then I started lookin at him like a brother the first time I cried on his shoulder.I'm not sure, the attraction may still be there.Now that I think about it, I think it is there. Regardless, it won't go any further than an attraction I can assure you.Anyways,I am so glad we met.He is always there when I call.I have been through a lot and I don't know how it got this way but I have always tunrned to him n my time of need.I have threw all of my problems at him and cried on his shoulders a thousand times and he never runs out of answers.I love him so much.I kind of think of him as my Mentor. He really helps and understands me.And he doesn't always agree with me and my side of story.He tells me the truth no matter how harsh it may be, and regardless of whether or not he thinks I want to hear it.He tells it like it is no matter what.
I finally realized that Michael is my confidant just last week.When I got kicked out,I used a payphone to call people thought would come and get me.He was the only one there for me.All of the people I thought were my friends turned their backs on me and left me alone.He was the only one there.He came to get me and took me back to his house.He made sure that I was okay and that I had everything I needed.I stayed with him for 2 days and he took care of me.He didn't hound me with questions and interrigate me.He just listened and responded.He is the best person I ever met.It's like he always comes to my rescue.I don't know what it is, but he's really great.He is my alternate brother,slash best friend, slash confidant, slash Mentor. ;) I'm glad I found him.
"Time is but a mystery, the question is of Me."