Hello and welcome to the Depression Forum. I know you will find the members helpful and caring.
I lost my older sister on April 30th to Ovarian Cancer so I know how you are feeling.
Grief is a normal and healthy response to loss, not an illness. Its symptoms are painful, but they serve an adaptive purpose. Most grief runs its course with the support of your friends/family. But sometimes grief can trigger depression.
When grief triggers depression, the sadness can be unrelenting and overwhelming. Some people describe it as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. Even when participating in activities you used to enjoy, you feel as if you are just “going through the motions.” You may also feel numb, lifeless and empty.
I would like to encourage you to consider counseling to help you through this painful time. One on one counseling can help you understand your feelings as well as teach you skills to cope with your pain.
Losing a loved one is devastating, but you have been left with a special gift - your memories.
Please accept my sympathy at the loss of your brother. (((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))
"For the test of the heart is trouble, and it always comes with tears. And the smile that is worth the praises of earth, is the smile that shines thorugh the tears." ~Unknown~
My wish for you is peace,
Remember that anger is not wrong as it is a normal human emotion. We are born with the ability to feel anger.
There are times when we should get angry and stand up for our rights or the rights of others who cannot do it for themselves.
It is when this anger is not controlled that we get into trouble so please don’t let your anger consume you.
I would also encourage you to seek out therapy for yourself to help you to learn how to deal with your feelings.
You are in my thoughts and prayers and please do keep talking with us as we are here to help you through this very sad time in your life.