I understand exactly where you are coming from and you are not alone in this. I took the same medication for many years, approx 20 years and it worked like a charm and one day. poof, it just started to quit working. I went through a very serious depression and anxiety, the lowest time of my life.
My Pdoc tried me on so many different meds I lost count. I went to therapy and mostly I cried for the good times I had and did not understand what had gone wrong.
I finally had to let go of my yearning for the past for it was over and I was now in a whole new situation, fighting to get out of this deep depression. I made it but it took me a long time and lots of therapy.
I had to make some major life changes, took early retirement.
I still have times that are not so good but they are not so bad either and I deal with them by practicing staying in the moment and accepting that I have Depression and Anxiety but I am a survivor.
I believe you are a survivor too. It is not easy to fight your way back but you will do it and I am right here to support you.
Keep on talking to us.
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