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faithfully4you
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   Posted 7/2/2009 9:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
my computer once again decided to break down but good news.......I fixed it myself!!!!!!  The weekend is coming and someone very special is going to have a birthday on the 7th.  Another birthday I will miss spending every second with from the time we get up 'til we celebrate night.  Even though everyday is not his birthday, I know maybe one day, even for a few hours, we can celebrate his special day.  My depression has been exhausting and even tonight, I am not sleeping.  I kept my grandson last night and having him close seems as only one more reason to live.  I want to share him so much with everyone I love.
I know it will be a joyous day on the 7th, I will be there in spirit.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


getting by
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   Posted 7/2/2009 9:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

I am so glad that you posted and so happy that you are spending time with your grandson.

You know 'he' posted on here a few months back. I tried to email you but you must have changed your address because it didn't go through.

I hope that your sadness lifts soon and that you are able to get some sleep. I know how it is when you can't sleep.

Take care my friend, keep us posted.

Kudos on fixing your computer yourself. I am really proud of you. It is like a miracle when we can do that.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 7/3/2009 1:19 AM (GMT -7)   
my thoughts are with you. you are a lovely person, you are important to us all. kind regards, jamie.

stkitt
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   Posted 7/3/2009 4:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,
I am so glad to know you have your grandson to love and to spend time with making memories. I have found great happiness in my grandchildren that live near me. 
 
The 5 year old is just a joy and so funny and the teens are a breath of fresh air to be with.  They all make me smile.
 
I hope you will find something special to do on the 7th.  On days like that for me, I plan ahead so I don't get blindsided by sad thoughts. You are in my prayers dear lady and please know you can always come here and we will be right here for you.
 
Gentle hugs and peace,
Kitt
 

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gentleman k
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   Posted 7/3/2009 4:59 PM (GMT -7)   
I will be praying for you. Hope you start getting better.

gentleman k

faithfully4you
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   Posted 7/4/2009 12:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Everyone,
I am trying tld type but I cut my middle finger open Thursday night and of course I should have had stitches, I never realinzed how much My fingers were used, wow,
Anyway, kinda sad today it is the 4th and I am alone and not sure what my plans are.  I was supposed to go to my friends house but she called and said they had to go to a "family" thing and did not invite me.  It seems like every holiday, I am alone.   Really gets very lonely but I should be used to it by now.
The 7th will be as difficult as all my days seem to be without this person it id just hard because everyday that passes is one more day trying to get through.
Thanks you guys for your kind posts, they do mean alot!!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


stkitt
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   Posted 7/4/2009 3:32 PM (GMT -7)   

Teresa,

My holiday is pretty quiet too.  No parties or fireworks. I slept in a bit, then came here to HW.  After that I cleaned the bathroom and read a book.  Now I am back here checking things out and hoping all are having a good day.

Now lets figure out what you are going to do on the 7th.  How about you post some ideas for the day that will keep you busy, allow you to feel the sadness but to work through it and know that there is good in your life with better days ahead ?

I am always here for you to play ideas off of.

Many gentle Hugs

Kitt


 

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faithfully4you
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   Posted 7/7/2009 6:29 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi guys,

My 4th was absolutely the worst ever!!  Long story short my friend didnt call and I slept through the fireworks, they just dont have the same meaning anymore.  Then Sunday she called and gave some lame excuse and invited me to their campsite about some 20-30 miles away.  Of course it was right past a place where memories were happy and it made me sad.  She and i got into a verbal arguement and I left on foot home not knowing that the place I knew was much further than I remembered.  I walked in the dark around midnight and fell exhausted.  I phoned the police because I was so scared and they phoned a cab to pick me up at the place I knew.  However, I was further away than I thought and the cab actually had to find me walking.  Here I was almost 5 miles from the restaurant.  I was cold, scared and feeling alone once again.  I had to stop at convenience store called Duke and Duchess and use the ATM to get cash for the cab.  After $50 of money I didnt have and coming home to noone to care about what happened, I spent the next day in bed with all the windows covered and no communication to anyone.

I cant take much more of this.  I am still looking for a doctor to take care of me.  I run out of meds in three weeks and dont know what to do.  Without them, I dont know what will happen.  I am trying so hard to stay up but I am not doing a good job.


" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


stkitt
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   Posted 7/7/2009 8:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Good Morning,
Today is the 7th and I would like to see you be good to yourself today. You are a kind and worthy person and you must believe that there are better times ahead, you just need some help to find the light. (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
 
First off, how about you ask some friends who they see for a physician and make any appointment at your local clinic?  From there you can get a referral to any type of physician or mental health professional you may need.
I am worried about you and therefore I am going to post a few crisis numbers for you to have so you can call and talk to someone.
 
Crisis lines:
NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632
Crisis Help Line | For Any Kind of Crisis 800-233-4357

Depression Hotline | Covenant House 800-999-9999
Please know we care and do call and talk to someone if you need too.
 
Hugs and prayers,
Kitt
 

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faithfully4you
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   Posted 7/8/2009 11:49 AM (GMT -7)   

I am really starting to think that I have noone on my side or who understands me.  Because of what happened on sunday, I have lost important friends, or at least I thought they were my friends.  No I take that back, my feelings and reasons were not even considered and everything I do is wrong.  I consider myself strong-willed and not afraid to speak the truth or what I feel.  From what I am hearing I am wrong and that is why I am alone.  "WHATEVER""""

So thanks you guys for being my friend and accepting me the way I am, even when I am wrong:~, lol.

Guess some friends werent meant to be.


" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


stkitt
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   Posted 7/8/2009 12:15 PM (GMT -7)   

Teresa,

When we are feeling depressed we often feel all alone, like no one in the world is there for us and we are always to blame for everything. This is not true.

It is at times like these, when we must dig deep into the inner most part of our resolve, and our will! We all have been where you are now, I have been there many times, and then some. I totally understand how you feel, the desperation, and lonliness. What you must do now, is succeed, set aside all else, and clear a path for yourself, and go for the most incredible dream of your life! What has happened in the past, will remain there, it is up to you to carve your future. You have it in you, you just don't know it now, everything is blurred by the pain  and depression. But remember my friend, you are stronger than you think, and it is never too late to turn it all around!

You have friends here and in your life.  Right now you are feeling upset but give yourself sometime and perhaps this friendship can be mended.

Bless you

Kitt

 

 


 

Kitt,
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