I think im depressed too.

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challengedone
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   Posted 7/7/2009 7:51 AM (GMT -7)   
Ok guys this message was put in the panic and aniexty forum but i was told to put this in here as well.  i suffer from both so i guess i should post both
 
ok so not only do i get panic attacks but i think im depressed too. i think that religion and everything that goes on in my life has kinda screwed me up in the head sometimes
i also feel like i have never grown up i feel like i am still a child. i get so upset because i want to be a person that can just talk to people and do not have to put on a face about it and just have a normal conversation but i can never do that. i always put on my mask and make sure that everyone thinks everything is fine. is this normal
 
Edit: I gave your thread a title.  :) 
Kitt

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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 7/8/2009 12:28 AM (GMT -7)   
hi challenge done, my name is jamie, i am 37, male and have lived with depression and other complex psychiatric illnesess for over 20 yrs. masking, we all do it, sometimes to save face, sometimes to hide, sometimes because the energy to show ourselves is tiring. being depressed is depressing. your religion, screwing you up, if okay can you explain. is it forced? facing things in a fast paced adult world can be brutal, i assume nothing, albeit i understand depression. i strongly suggest you see your doctor, he/she can on refer you to people whom can be of help. if you are not taking medication, then this may well be of benefit to you. describing your situation to your doc will aid in receiving the right treatments and assistance. oh, normal is a word i stay away from as i can not define it, yeah i understand talking to people whilst in panic or if talking to people will cause an attack, thus shying away.
 
hey, i admire your courage in posting. the hw community is fantastic and i know you will hear from others soon. stay strong and keep safe. jamie.

JeannieM
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   Posted 7/8/2009 6:27 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome!!! It sucks living with depression and anxiety (I'm another one who suffers from both..some days it's more depression, some days it's more anxiety). I am the queen of negative thinking. I'm also great at hiding it...heck I should be, I've been practicing for many years. I'm 39 yrs old and probably have been depressed as long as I can remember. Course in school I was labeled as "shy", "backward", etc. I really believe it was depression even back then. With me, I blame my parents, well my mom more then my step dad. I'm 3 yrs older then my brother but was never as good as him. He could do no wrong and I could do no right, even to this day. I married a bum (in my mom's eyes) but my brother's wife is the greatest wife/mother in the world according to her. My husband told me the first time he met my mom he could see how she treated me so different then my brother, and of course all I want is her acceptance, even though I know it's not going to happen. When I finally "got a set" (as my husband says) and stood up to her it became "you've changed because of him" you know crap like that. She also refused to believe way back when that I needed help with the depression and stuff I was going through and refused to take me to a doctor or let me talk about it if I went to the doctor for something else. It was when I got a job and got insurance that I was officially diagnosed. I could go on and on but I'll keep this short for now.

Again welcome...it really helps having other's dealing with the same problems to talk to.

challengedone
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   Posted 7/8/2009 11:10 AM (GMT -7)   
hey everyone i just want to say thanks for all the responces i really dont have time right now to type more about religion and everything but i will i just wanted to say that i appreciate the responces it does feel good to talk :)

challengedone
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   Posted 7/12/2009 10:34 AM (GMT -7)   
good morning all, ok so today i woke up and im feeling like crap. i ate a bunch of food last night i fill swollen and fat i wish this wasnt such a big concern for me. i feel like my life is falling apart and that i am not moving anywhere. i started a new salon with my good friend and i was on salary the business isnt doing as well so she had to take my salary away. just as things start to look up for me the fall back down. i started living my life for god again and believe that this is a blessing from him and started falling away and now i feel this is all the reason i feel if i am not serving him nothing will be good i need help i think im going crazy i really feel like it sorry its so short trying to type this before someone sees ill come on and check it later to see whats uop

THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 7/13/2009 12:30 AM (GMT -7)   
am very worried about you. if you need immediate help pls contact your hosp or direct support numbers. stay safe, okay, we care. jamie

challengedone
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   Posted 7/14/2009 12:04 PM (GMT -7)   
i think i need help too. i am so fearful right now i hate this pit feeling that i have. people make me so nervous for some reason now i freak when i do have clients what am i to do how will i beable to find a career that i can work at

challengedone
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   Posted 7/14/2009 2:02 PM (GMT -7)   
im just concerned because i havent started even paying for my schooling and i do love what i do but i hate the paranoia that i get from meeting people. i shut down and i dont want to be this way. it seems that the older i get the more that i want to shut down and i feel so insecure. i just keep getting more insecure as i get older too. its funny though cause some times i feel like i can conquer the world then in a split second i am so insecure. i dont have the finances or the guts to go to a psy. but i would like too. i almost feel as if i would have to be forced to go with out my will being taken . am i nuts?

THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 7/14/2009 6:41 PM (GMT -7)   
no not nuts. but if you do not drum up the guts maybe you will be forced into hospital and sectioned. trust me you DO NOT want this!!! ps. psychiatrists are human too!! from someone who has had over 10 years of therapy i can vouch that it is extremely beneficial. i would hunt around to see if there are any therapists on a sliding fee scale. maybe you may find one that is free. check with doc, community mental health centre, or mental health consumer numbers in your area. hey, u will be much better after your first step, in the meantime keep safe, keep your mind active, relax to music, hot and resting bath, do some poetry, write, sing, anything. our minds become mushy when unwell, thus try to keep it stimulated. if there are any free call counselling numbers try calling, you are annoymous, you can say things you need to freely, and you will get some definate feedback and maybe some info on recommend services and good people who can help. all the best, jamie. keep fightin'.
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