I'm just so tired of fighting. No I'm not talking about you know what. I just want to run away for a while, I won't but I want to. Things have been really rough lately and of course the depression doesn't help matters any.
I've been laid off from work more then I've worked this year. I do get unemployment but it's not alot due to the amount of time I've been laid off. Things are not looking good at the place I work. The company I work for just closed a facility in Florida (I'm in PA) and 500 people are out of a job there. We are all kind of waiting to see when the bomb is going to drop here. I've been laid off the last 2 weeks now. I'm there almost 17 years. Been looking for something else but no one is hiring around here. All I've ever done is factory work.
I'm tired of fighting with my husband about money all the time. He has a fairly expensive hobby and doesn't see or care that this is one of the big sources of our money problems. I'm tired of fighting with my 10 year old because he has such a case of "I want" that it's not funny. I can't go anywhere without him wanting something. He was mad in Walmart on Sunday because I wouldn't buy him a 9.00 skateboard. His problem is he has expensive tastes just like his daddy. I told him for that 9.00 I could buy 3 boxes of cereal.
My 1992 van died over the weekend too. My husband tried to fix it but he said it was beyond repair and there was a 2 foot long rust hole underneath it when he jacked it up. I knew it was going but was hoping it was going to last a little while longer. Now we are down to one vehicle (DH is going to borrow one of the delivery vehicles from his boss but he's pissing and moaning about that..I'm like what do you want me to do about it, we can't afford anything right now. His boss is nice enough to let us borrow it so why not take advantage of it for now, until I get back to work or find another job). I work midnight to 8 am and unfortunately no one is close enough to pick me up.
I've given up on fighting the insurance company for coverage of Cymbalta. Even if I would get approved, my copay would be 75.00 a month and there is no way that's happening. I'll stick with the 4.00 celexa from Walmart for now, I guess.
They say when it rains it pours, and it's been raining alot here in PA lately both outside and inside. I'm sorry to vent like this. I used to belong to another depression board and I posted something like this a few months ago and people got on my case about being happy I kind of have a job, husband and crap like that so I'm a little worried about posting this here now.