Just feel lost...................

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Jason Jackson
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   Posted 7/10/2009 8:55 PM (GMT -7)   
i hope someone can help me with this one. i don't know what's going on.



this all started back in may of 2009. my close friends just had a brand new baby boy that came in to the world. they're my official 2nd family.



i've seen baby collyn at least once before this dream i had.



about a week or two after collyn was born i had this really bad dream with the him in it i had dreamed i was in the hospital room visiting and seeing the baby for the first time. my friends paul, amy and bridget were all together in the hospital room. we were all celebrating with the new baby. bridget (the mother) handed collyn over to me hold. i was sittin' down with him... just as i began to hold him, this force came in the room. to me it was a blue spiral mist, then this bright beam of light in the middle of the spiral came in the middle of the spiral grabbed collyn from me and took him away. now, i remember paul, amy and bridget did'nt see this force that i was seeing, they continued to celebrate. collyn vanished from my arms and i woke up. my heart was really racing, this dream i had really scared me.



i told them about the dream i had, they just not to worry about it, it was just a dream. i just feel like, whatever this force was did'nt want me in the room or near the baby. like i was'nt needed.



there are certain days now after this dream i had, i just feel let down. sometimes i feel like someone beating me. here just recently i've been having problems with my thyroid gland, just had benign cists on them, also did have a panic attack a couple of weeks ago. i've just have'nt been myself since this dream. just feel my spirit is lost! i have lost some weight to. everything's just been happening since the dream. even as i type this i feel like i've been beatin' with a sledge hammer. i don't have any problem with my work place.



my friends are good religious people, they are helping me cope with this. they know i feel lost right now.



so, what do you think is wrong? i think it's just all in my head...but i don't think so.



i love this baby so much...i'll be darned if anything bad happened to him!



please let me know



-jason jackson

jonesborough, tennessee

http://www.myspace.com/jasonj1972

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Post Edited By Moderator (Frances_2008) : 7/10/2009 11:23:08 PM (GMT-6)


Tirzah
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   Posted 7/10/2009 10:30 PM (GMT -7)   
Jason,

Welcome to Healing Well! I did take out the contact information you listed, in compliance with the Forum Rules. If you would like members to see your email address, please add it to your Profile.

I think you have gotten some wise advice from your friends about the dreams. As for your symptoms, those are typical symptoms of thyroid problems. Even sleep disruptions, including nightmares, can be connected to thyroid issues. I would encourage you to talk with your doctor about possible treatments for your thyroid. I know when I started getting treatment for mine, I felt a lot better -- much less depressed, joint pain went away, slept better, not nauseous any more, less anxious, hair isn't falling out like crazy any more, etc. It really sounds like maybe all your symptoms, including the nightmares, resulted from your thyroid issues, rather than being caused by the nightmares.

Please do talk with your doctor & talk to your friends when you need support. You cannot cause anything bad to happen to your friends' son by your nightmares so try to put that out of your mind & just keep telling yourself that everything is okay, the baby is safe & you are not causing any problems.

I'm sure other members will be along shortly to welcome you as well. Keep posting here whenever you need support.

take care,
Frances
Moderator -- Depression Forum


Jason Jackson
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Date Joined Jul 2009
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   Posted 7/10/2009 10:56 PM (GMT -7)   
thak you so much frances, thanks for the warm welcome! :)! i'm sorry about putting my contact information on here! i will most certainly put that on profile later today! my bad ! :)

my friends had a cookout on the 4th of july. too my surprise they had a little present that they gave me. after dinner amy asked me to come up in front of everyone and they presented me a new bible and a card. i got a little teary eyed, and amy said for me that everything was gonna be ok and the baby was safe, that they were here to help.

one thing i forgot to mention, i did'nt find out about my thyroid when i went for my regular doctor check-up over a week ago. i had to get an ultrasound and a biopsy done this week. i had this dream in may.

i know the baby is gonna be ok and safe. i just got to get over this!

i'll keep you all updated! again, sorry about my posting my contact info. have a great weekend everyone!

Tirzah
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   Posted 7/11/2009 9:11 AM (GMT -7)   
Jason,
Please don't worry about having posted your contact info. That rule is in place to protect the members. I know you'll remember it in the future, so it's not a big deal. :)

I am glad to hear your friends are so caring. It sounds like you have a wonderful group of people surrounding you. I still think it may be related to your thyroid. Just b/c you only found out about your thyroid probs. last week doesn't mean that it wasn't already causing problems back in May. Usually by the time they find anything, it has been slowly getting worse for months or years prior to that.

If you haven't had that dream repeating since May, I really do think that it's probably just a matter of telling yourself enough times that it was just a crazy dream and had nothing at all to do with reality. Sometimes we get an idea in our heads & it just keeps repeating like a broken record. I have found that the only way I ever get that idea to change is to keep repeating the truth over & over again in my head (& sometimes aloud). Maybe there is even a verse in that Bible your friends gave you that you can memorize & repeat whenever you are feeling anxious. My personal favorites are Joshua 1:9 and Philippians 4:6-7.

Peace,
Frances
Moderator -- Depression Forum

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