Hi KM08, and welcome. As I read your post I saw something maybe you're not seeing right now. I saw a strong woman, one who wasn't going to put up w/ crap from a man. You want certain things in your life for you and your son. I know that had to be hard to break things off, but you knew it was what you needed to do. You want respect from a man you love. You deserve respect from a man you love. You should not feel like trash, that is his thing. You were being a loyal woman to him and the life you two had created. He is the person who couldn't be true.
Do not look at yourself thru tears, you need to see yourself w/ a new 'set' of eyes. Review ALL of your good points, not thru his eyes, but thru the eyes of love. Start w/ how your son sees you. You are his world, you are all the good things in his life, he sees his beautiful, loving mommy. Don't judge yourself by old b/f's new girl. Your dreams are not over, you have a family - Kaden! Some day you will find the right man who will appreciate the goodness that is you.
A few wks ago I started having attacks, my dr and I thought I was having strokes. Last time I went to ER, admitted into hospital. After all the tests came back negative, dr decided it is panic/anxiety. I have insurance, but I can't afford hospital stay (husband's work hrs have been cut due to economy). I had another attack the other day during med testing. Knowing what was happening, I was able to get it under control after a bit. It is frightening, but I was able to defeat it.
NO MAN is worth giving up! EVER! There are days when you feel like you put one foot in front of the other and keep moving. Remember, you have two very important things to live for, Kaden AND you. Don't give anyone power over you. You are a strong woman, never forget that. Consider yourself lucky to be rid of that jerk. This is your chance for a new beginning.
Ppl here are very caring, come back here and let us know how you and Kaden are doing. Try to get some sleep tonight, tomorrow is a new day to live your life.
God bless. Alice.