Good Morning, I am right here for you. I am glad you are comfortable coming here and talking with us. I understand how sad you are feeling.
Try to remember what your friend would have wanted for you...............happiness! Honor this person by working through your grieving and moving a step closer toward healing each day.
There is another book you may want to look for and I would guess your library has this one.
Why Do Bad Things Happen to Good People? By David Arnold. This one helped me when our son died and when I experieced the loss of other people close to me.