Good Morning Hara,
I understand the "appointment cancelling" as I have done that but I finally broke the behavior no matter how down I felt or how anxious I was. I set a goal that I would keep my appointments as putting them off was just dragging things out.
Give yourself permission to be Okay with cancelling this time but please do try to make your appointments in the future. It is a good feeling to come home and know you met your goals.
I know how you feel about the Depression and Anxiety. I have been stuck the past 3 days and I don't know why. I will have times where everything is going well and I feel fine and then boom the depression is back. It is hard to remain positive when it comes back out of no where.
I have been to therapy and I try very hard to "stay in the moment" and not let the anxiety that accompanies the depression go into overdrive. I try to chase the " what if thoughts'" away as I know they only keep the anxiety in the red zone.
I do love a massage and do not get headaches but I would have to drive a fair distance to a salon that offers the service. Sometimes a pedicure does the job for me and helps me just relax into the moment.
I really do try to accept that I am a person with major depressive disorder and GAD and most of the time that works............other times I just break down in tears and beg it to stop.
I will never give up as I know that I will have better days ahead and I just need to get through today.
Through therapy I have learned to take it one day at a time. Instead of worrying about how I will get through the rest of the week or coming month, I try to focus on today. Each day can provide us with different opportunities to learn new things and that includes learning how to deal with our problems. I try to focus on the present and stop trying to predict what may happen next week. Next week will take care of itself.
Bless you my new friend and keep on talking with us. You are an important part of the Family here in the Depression Forum.
I wish you peace,
Oh well said, Kitt! Absolutely, you have such a great attitude in the face of adversity. Makes me want to strive to be more positive and accept my illness, and get on with living life, resentment free.
Thanks Maz and Jamie :)
Hope your day is better and that you will continue to stick with us. We really do know what you are going through and we are here to validate your feelings and help you learn how to cope with your depression.