Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 7/18/2009 8:02:10 AM (GMT-6)
Hello Michael and welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum.
I am sorry you are feeling so down and depressed. Is there a chance you could make a list of things you would like to do and also a list of all the things you do all day long now? Taking the two lists, can you find a place where you could cut some work time out and use it just for you? If the cost of entertainment is to much, how about a walk in a park, a visit to the library, muesum, or just meeting someone for coffee for 30 minutes.
I believe we all must have something to look forward to each day. Perhaps playing a game or reading a good book. Please do find something that will make you feel good about yourself.
If you allow the depression to overwhelm you then work will end up falling by the wayside and your parents will not benefit from your ability to contribute to helping out the household.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Can you pick up the races on your computer? Also, get that car out and go for a drive..............what are your parents going to do to you, take away your birthday? It is OK to be a little selfish and take yourself for a drive.
I am not trying to belittle your parents in anyway but your in a fight for your mental health well being here and you must take care of you. You cannot live your life for others and be happy. Yes you can live your life with your family but you are only one person in the whole family and I would guess that other members in this family are finding happiness for themselves so you need to take a leap of faith and do something for you.
Give yourself permission to take a spin in the car all alone.