hi, thanks for the post.
I guess there was something that i can attribute to the sudden change of mood but there is little i can do about it. It's a delicate subject and not one for an open forum.
He went out to celebrate his race success, there would be loads of people there, but no one that i would be talking to. I also don't drink socially as i can't stop myself when i start, so i just avoid social situations like this.
I was supposed to pick him up from the pub an hour later but he phoned to say his mate will drop him home later,(who'll be drinking and driving), i phoned back and he didn't answer so i left a txt asking that i pick him up at 11.30 instaed. Now he won't be home till the early hours of the morning, I could do with having him here so badly, i;m alone and so down, i can't stop crying and will have footballs for eyes for work in the morning. It's 11.35pm where i am now.
I know he doen't go out often, but the little bit of time he has off he never wants to spend time doing anything i want, it always has to be some sporting thing.
Maybe we're just not meant to be together, i think he'd rather be with someone else anyway. I think i'm just dragging him down.
thanks for sharing, i'm in statue mode and considering canselling work today. It's one of those days where i don't want to see anyone as if i do i'ii surely breakdown. I work in retail so it's not easy to hide away. I just can't stop crying despite taking some xanax.
My husband was saying how people in the pub were commenting how great i was at skiing the last time we went away as a group. All the while i was at home having a complete meltdown and he didn't want to be anywahere near me...i don't blame him.
He keeps asking me what's wrong and all i can tell him is that i don't know. Any time i do open up and talk he just tells me to go for a walk and how much worse off i could be. The last thing he said to me was, he's given up and not putting up with this crap anymore. Again, i don't blame him, i really just want to let him get on with his life, and by that i don't mean i'm going to off myself. Maybe i should leave him for his own good, so he can enjoy his life.
i'm totally unable to function as a human should right now.
Hi boo, i know how you are feeling girl... i am the same ,can go from feeling really good and just suddenly come crashing down,,,and i cant seem to pick myself up again...having a good cry helps,,and so does talking,,,I have suffered with depression since I was 7 years old,,,a long time now...but always find beauty somewhere in something that always still manages to make me smile...I still feel sad , but I guess that is life,,,its not fair and life was never menat to be...but I am thinking of you girl... just know that someone knowing how much you hurt and understands can make a difference...It has not been a good few weeks for me,,,so hugs girl!!!hope you feel better soon
I know how you feel and I too have had my hubby get perturbed with my depression. He truly does his very best but at times he gets overwhelmed. He has his own health problems so we actually balance out pretty well in the end.
I am hurt when he gets to a point where he "needs to go up north because it is the only place he can find peace and quiet" yet I try to look at it from his view point too. It is tough to be the person with depression but it is also hard to be the one that loves the depressed person.
This is a nasty disorder but we are survivors. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other each and everyday. All those babysteps will get you through the hard times.