Please talk to your Dr. and they are not minor problems to you are they? Also, please, please leave the alcohol alone. It is so easy to get to a bad place with that stuff before you know it, especially if you are using it to escape as I did before I realized I really had a problem and needed help. Be willing to accept help, realize we all need help along the way and it is by no means a sign of weakness, but rather that you are smart enough to know when things are not right. Is there a way you can support yourself without living at home? It sounds like it is not a nuturing situation. We do not get to pick our families, unfortunately.
Take care of yourself, be willing to accept help and I hope you feel much better very soon.
Youve been given great advice, i would follow through with a doctors appointment asap. I am sorry you have had periods of hallucinations- this happened to me when i was first put on a very old fashioned anti-depressant at the age of 15- (so 14 yrs ago). for nearly 6 weeks as i waited for th AD's to kick in, i hallucinated, day and night. however what i saw was not distressing and i had a sense of peace. i wasnt scared, and it finally went away.
I wish you all the best and hope you stick with us
hi and welcome,
I'm sorry to hear you're going thru such a rough time, it can't be easy. Any problem that is effecting you is YOUR problem. What brings me down could be completely different, the important thing is that you get help. I would definately consult with a doctor and rule out any medical issues.
The situation you're in is stiffling your life at the moment and certainly not one that is going to nourish your singing career. Did you you have to move home for financial reasons or look after your folks. There comes a time in your life when it's ok to walk away, and if you can it may be the start of a great thing.
I know i have a lovely house, husband and decent job, but there are days when i hate my life sooo much, for no reason at all, so don't feel guilty about having these amazing singing opportunities that you think SHOULD make you happy.
You need to get help, you're just stuck right now and need to find a way to move forward. Try to get help, from a counsellor or doctor.
Your career won't last long if you drink and smoke either so as soon as you quit those you're starting to make a change.
Good luck and we hope to hear from you soon.