Feel like I am reallly losing it

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Aurora60
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   Posted 7/24/2009 2:17 PM (GMT -7)   
I have been cooped up in my house for so long because of the bad asthma I am having right now.  I have only been out to go to the dr. and to do a few errands.  My son has been great about taking me.  But it's only for a short time and then I am home again stuck looking at these same walls or trying to stare at the boring TV.  I feel like I am getting loopy not just from being in the house so much but also I am on prednisone and it makes me climb the walls. And I can't sleep at night. I can't even read as I have no ability to concentrate. I just wish this would clear up soon so I can get out by myself and feel like a normal person again. My son is going on vacation for 2 weeks Aug. 1 so then I have the added problem of lonliness and being scared alone in the house at night.  I have a few things planned for the 1st week and maybe I will get used to it but the silence is awful.  I know I shouldn't be complaining so much but it is hard to be sick, alone and depressed.  I wish we still had Tues chats but I guess it was stopped for the summer. And no one from this forum ever seems to be in chat.  I know others have it so much worse. I guess I am sitting on the pity pot right now. And getting out is hard as the mold count is so high here and that is what is triggering my asthma.  So I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. 
 
Aurora

CassandraLee
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   Posted 7/24/2009 2:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Aurora.  I am sorry that you still haven't been feeling well because of your asthma.  I know that when I am sick it makes everything else seem so.... much worst.   Currently, I am not as cooped in as you are, but I do spend a good bit of time in my house with my children and also alone when they are at their fathers house.  And when I am alone I get even more stressed and depressed because of the issues I am dealing with in my own life.  Unfortunately, my mind tends to get stuck in overdrive.
 
Do you have any hobbies that you could get yourself involved in around your house that might make the time seem like it is going so much faster?  Recently, out of necessity, I had to paint some furniture to put into my younger daughters room.  I was quite surprised when I realized how much I enjoyed both the sanding and painting of it as I was so focused it took my mind off of everything else.  I was actually relaxed.. and more so than I have been in a long time.  ...Just one thought for you.
 
Also, I have also noticed that a lot of people have dropped off of chat now that summer has begun.  It has been disappointing as there used to be a regular group of us that always chatted at the same time every night.  While I am still friends with them, our summer schedules have made it difficult to meet up.  But I am around quite a bit checking the forums for a new friend to chat with, so if you are ever lonely just let us know in a post that you're available in the chat room.  I would be thrilled to come on and chat with you.  And especially during the two weeks in August that you will be alone, perhaps you can organize and post your own chat time to try to get everyone together.
 
It sounds like you feel quite alone right now.  But there are many of us out here who have followed your posts and replied - and do care about you.  So maybe you are not as alone as you think.
 
You are certainly entitled to your own pity party right now.  I for one understand that.  But maybe if we all put our cyber hands together we can help each other feel better.
 
Take care and (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))).
 
Cass

gentleman k
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   Posted 7/24/2009 3:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Cass

Good advice for Aurora. I agree with staying busy to help with depression. Hoping to chat again with you soon. Take care!

gentleman k

Aurora60
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   Posted 7/24/2009 3:30 PM (GMT -7)   

Thanks Cass and Gentleman K for your replies. I do have hobbies however, I haven't been able to do them.  I love to garden but can't be outside because of all the pollen and mold in the air. That is what is making my asthma so bad.  I also needlepoint but the prednisone makes me shake so much and have the jitters that I can't control the needle well and make mistakes and then have to rip out stitches.  But I am trying to read to compensate for the boredom.  I can only read so much before I just get too antsy.  I will see if my son will take me for a car ride tomorrow.  Getting out of the house helps me. Today was bad because I was in all day.  But maybe there will be some improvement with my meds overnight.  Cass, I will take you up on trying to get a chat going in Aug.  I think that would help a lot with the lonliness, especially at night if you are available.  I am in the Central time zone but we could work out times.  And would love anyone else who wants to chat to join in.  Thanks for caring.

Hugs,

Aurora


Korissa
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   Posted 7/24/2009 6:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello dear Aurora--
Sorry to hear you're not doing well. I was on adrenal extract a couple of weeks ago and it made me feel wired. I would never take a steroid again! I quit after a week, but I understand that you don't have that option.

I wish you could go to a clinic in Wisconsin that treats allergies with drops under the tongue. I don't know anyone with asthma who's been there, but I do know people with severe allergies who have been helped.

Do you like puzzles? I do all the days puzzles (14) on jigzone.com every day. They take an average about 6 minutes each and the fun part is a clock is running so you work at beating the average time it takes to do that puzzle. They change them in the pm so there are 7 new ones then.

Pretty mindless, but I can listen to the radio or watch TV or listen to a book on CD at the same time and it makes the time pass.

I'll watch for Tuesday chats in Aug. Hope you're doing better by then so you can get out of the house more when your son is gone.

Hugs,
Korissa

Raniah
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   Posted 7/24/2009 7:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Aurora,

I know it must be so aggravating to be cooped up in the house. I’ve been going through the same thing, and I thought I would totally lose my mind, too. I love to garden like you do, and everything is overgrown with weeds because I have been unable to do it…..it’s a real source of sadness and frustration right now. I’ve had to find other distractions in the house, and like Korissa, I enjoy the jigzone puzzles, and have done a bunch of them during this pneumonia when I was too tired to focus on a book or a video. It’s a nice, short activity if you enjoy doing puzzles. I have also been playing bookworm, which is a word game that Karen introduced me to. Other than that, the only thing I have done that has served as a distraction is to talk on the phone (as much as my throat would allow) or email with people…..but there is only so much of that to be had, and again it gets hard to concentrate for longer periods of time. I really feel what you are going through, and I hope so much that it will get better soon. You definitely have my sympathies and understanding.

I wonder if there is some place indoors that is air conditioned, like a shopping center or nice bookstore, that is near your house where your son could drop you off for a couple of hours. I don’t know about you, but I love to browse in bookstores, and the atmosphere always seems to be relaxing and low key.

Do you like cooking or baking? Sometimes trying a new recipe is a good distraction, and one that can accommodate a limited scope of concentration when you are feeling a bit wired.

I will try to think of some more suggestions. In the meantime, please know you are not alone, because all of us are here for you and we really care about you. I love reading your threads, as well as your posts to other people. You always having a caring way of lifting others up, and you really pay attention to what they have to say. I’m not much of an internet chatter, but if you ever want someone to talk to, you are always welcome to email me. I hope things improve soon, and I hope you know we will all be here to post with you when things are tough. Take care, and post again soon.
 
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Aurora60
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   Posted 7/24/2009 7:39 PM (GMT -7)   

Thank you Korissa and Raniah for your words.  Korissa, I play solitaire online and that is a distraction but then I end up winning and it's not fun anymore.  I also do sudoku puzzles but those can get complicated but still it is something to keep occupied.  Raniah, I know how you feel about the garden.  I can't stand to see the weeds but like you there is no way I can go out and garden.  I do love the bookstore and it is air conditioned so that is a great idea.  I will have to get my breathing under control before I go out though. And my son loves the bookstore too so he can stay and that way I won't worry or get panicked.  I don't like to say I wish summer was over but that is the key to my improvement.  Unfortunately it takes a hard freeze to get rid of all the pollen and allergens in the air and that won't be until late Oct or Nov. So I am puffing away on my inhalers.  I thank the Lord for making  me one of those people who never smoked! Maybe      

we can get a chat group going again sometime.  I would love to chat with all of you.  It
always seemed like a good way to keep up our friendships and share ideas. And just to check on each other and offer support.  I take so much comfort in all you both have to say as well as my other many HW friends.  Thanks for giving my evening an uplift.
 
Many hugs,
Aurora

getting by
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   Posted 7/25/2009 7:59 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Aurora,

I am sorry for being so late getting to this thread, but have been working a lot and haven't had much time to get on the forum.

I know that Erik started chat, but is on vacation and hasn't been here to continue it. But you can alway try on Tuesdays at the time you use to. Sometimes if you sit in the chatroom others will join. You just might have to sit there a while. And as was stated above, leave a message here in the forum that you will be here and hopefully somebody will see it and join you. Maybe I could try to get chat started again. I will try, but it depends on how much I have to work. And we don't have to necessarily have a moderator in there, just people to talk to.

You are also welcome to email me. Sometimes I can't get back right away, but I will answer eventually.

I hope that you start feeling better soon. You are such a sweet person and a valued member here. Always remember that.

Hugs, Karen
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Aurora60
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   Posted 7/25/2009 9:52 AM (GMT -7)   

Karen, you are such a dear, always thinking of me and saying just what is right to help me. I am doing a bit better today and am going to try to go out by myself and do a few errands.  I so need a change of scenery.  Thanks for the tips on going into chat.  I will try to be on this Tues, th 28th.  Will go on and wait to see if others come on.  I think it will be helpful to us.  We are headed for August and the summer doledrums so a good chat maybe just what many of us need.  Take care and hope to see you in chat.  I know it is good you are working. I hope it is enjoyable for you, but do take time for yourself.

Many hugs,

Aurora


getting by
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   Posted 7/25/2009 10:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Aurora,

There will be official chat that day. Kitt got the time set up for me from Erik's schedule and I will put a reminder on it MOnday. I am so glad that you brought this up. I will be able to be there for a few minutes, but have a pdoc appointment that day.

Thanks for all of the kind words. I have this weekend off of work so will try to be on the forum more. I am kicked back and relaxing watching tv.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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