Karen, that would be great if you came into chat. I'm sure you have had a long hard day and may be too tired. But if you are up to it would love to chat with you. You always have the right things to say.
Cass, I appreciate you trying to help. I really felt like a 5th wheel and it was just very uncomfortable for me. I think I am better just posting a thread and getting replies that way. It seems like this group all knows each other and it is too hard for me to try to fit in.
Thanks, Becky. I just felt like I was intruding on your chat. I guess you all get together for chat and have a whole group. I haven't been part of that and I just felt like a fifth wheel. I just felt like no one was interested in talking to me. I could give it another try and see how it goes. I am so lonely at night so I thought having people to chat with would help me get through the night but it ended up making me feel worse. I guess with so many people its hard to break into your conversations. And you all know each other so well. Maybe I will try again and see how it goes. I have 2 weeks alone coming up and I am just dreading it.
Hi Barbara, thank you for replying to me. I have been in a very low, depressed way lately and I was hoping to find a way to take the edge off my lonliness by finding some friends to talk with. I'm sorry that someone upset you. I would never do that. One of my problems is that I am ultra sensitive and the slightest thing can get me in tears. I am on an a/d med and anti anxiety. I do see a therapist and she is wonderful. But there are the times when I can't talk to her and I feel just lost. I have been divorced for a long time. I have 2 sons 35 and 30. My younger son was supposed to get married in Oct. but the whole thing fell apart and I am very sad that there is no wedding to look forward to but glad that he will not marry this girl who was not right for him. I am a 4 yr breast cancer survivor but never got my energy back after all the radiation. I also suffer from very bad asthma which keeps me in a lot because there is a lot of mold and pollen here. I took care of my elderly mother for 10 yrs and worked for about 20 yrs while raising my boys. I am looking for a part time job but there is nothing out there so I don't have much to do. I am a volunteer at our local Senior Center and I enjoy doing that. I would love to travel but don't have the money to go any where right now. My older son is going in vacation for 2 weeks. He lives with me. He has epilepsy so hasn't been able to be on his own but I am trying to get him independent because I won't be here forever. When he goes away I get very sad because I am alone in the house and I get scared at night. I am trying to get together with friends but Aug is the month everyone goes away before school starts. My sons are my only family. My grandparents, parents and 2 sisters have all passed away so I guess I depend on my sons too much. If you think it would be OK for me to come into chat I may give it another chance. I'll try and see how it goes. Thank you again for responding to me. I may not get into chat tonight as we are having a family dinner but if not tonight then i'll try tomorrow.