Brandon after 10 years of visiting message boards I am quite adept at reading typo's so don't sweat it.
Have you heard this one. Even if your personal faith does not include God, which is none of my business, the words still have great meaning.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Also if I may be so bold, it sounds as if you are trying to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. I don't know what your free time is like, but I suggest taking time out of each and every day for yourself. Do whatever it is that helps you to relax, that brings you some joy and peace and so you can forget all of your problems for a time so you can recharge your mental and emotional batteries. This can be anything from meditation to playing video/computer games, reading a book, going for a walk/run/bike ride, drive, whatever.
You must take care of you first.
2 confirmed herniated lumbar discs. Spinal Arthritis. Spinal Stenosis, diabetic peripheral nueropathy.