Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 8/11/2009 5:13:30 PM (GMT-6)
Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum. I am glad you have found us and please know that the edit was for content as we have members as young as 13 years old on the site.
I do hope this addiction is something you can work through but I think perhaps you will need some professional help in doing so. Ridding yourself of the habit is awesome but to keep in your mind that you will then use it only as a reward will put you at high risk for getting hooked on the drug again.
It feels to me like you are a good and kind person that needs to think about looking for some new friends............I know that sounds unreasonable but as long as you keep company with people who are using you will be tempted.
I think once you have tackled your demons your writing and music will come easier to you. If you have talent please do work on getting back to what your really good at.
I hope you learn to believe in yourself and know that you can be happy without using.
Do stick with us and know we care. Also keep on sharing as knowing addiction is one of your issues that may be causing your depression we can work with that info.
I wish you peace and happiness.
Post Edited (stkitt) : 8/12/2009 10:22:22 AM (GMT-6)