Welcome to Healing Well! I see that Maz, Kitt & Serafena have already given you some really good advice. I guess I'm not entirely clear about what's going on. Are you deeply depressed or just really, really angry about your mom & step-dad being super unfair about where you go to school?
If it's the first, please do look into the posted resources & get help right away. Your life is too precious.
If you are just really, really angry & wanting to tell everyone that, we are glad to help (it's just hard to think about helping someone when they say they want to die since there's no way of telling over the internet whether the person is suicidal or just saying that to show how mad they are!). I'm wondering whether there isn't another adult that you trust who you could talk to about the school situation. It should be someone who's good at talking & esp. good at listening. Then you could explain your situation with the schools to the person & they could either help you figure out how to talk to your mom without your step-dad butting in or they could maybe even talk to your mom for you so that she can hear the same thing said in a different way & maybe better understand how important this it to you & why it matters so much. Besides that, I'm wondering whether you could write your mom a letter explaining why it is so important to you to go to the one school. That's what I did when I was in high school. I didn't like the school I was going to & wanted to switch to a private school. My parents thought it wouldn't be as good of an education & they wouldn't even listen to me about it at all.
So I wrote a letter to my mom & wrote out how miserable I was at the first high school b/c I didn't have any friends left there & I felt really out of place. The teachers were mean & I wasn't allowed to take the honors math classes there b/c the guidance counselor was super old & thought that girls shouldn't take advanced math classes. So I talked to my friends at the second high school about what things were like there. I went on the second HS's web site to print off information about how good their classes were & how the seniors were able to get into good colleges. It got my parents' attention. Then my dad agreed that we could go to visit the school & if they would let me enroll in honors math classes, then I could switch schools. The guidance counselors & teachers & VP were really pretty nice. They were honest with my parents about that it's often pretty hard for students to switch schools their junior year, and that helped my parents to believe that they really did want their students to succeed. After all of that, my dad was okay with letting me go, but my mom was still on the fence, so I asked one of my friend's mom to talk with my mom about what the school was like. Then, my mom finally agreed to let me switch to the second school! I was so happy & have never regretted putting all that effort into getting my parents to agree to let me switch schools b/c I really got a lot out of those last two years -- both by being with new friends & by getting to enroll in more challenging classes.
I know it doesn't always work like that, but I just wanted to encourage you that if your mom isn't hearing you at first, to keep at it & keep trying to show her that she doesn't have anything to worry about with you switching schools. It sounds like she really does want the best for you, but she just doesn't see how this other school would be the best choice for you. So maybe you can try to show her in a different way -- whether by writing something, by having a friend's mom/dad talk to her, by setting up an appointment to talk to her or even by calling her on her cell phone (that's what my sister used to do when she really needed to get my mom's attention).
Try to stay positive & just keep making your point in different ways! And if you ever want more suggestions about how to try to convince your mom to see things from your point of view, just ask. We have a lot of great members on this site -- including a bunch youth who are going through their own share of battles -- who seem always ready with advice. Just let us know how we can help or support you.
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