Do you ever feel just incredibly irritable for no apparent reason? Just cranky but nothing 'happened' to put you in that mood. Or just all of a sudden that 'one more thing' makes everything overwhelming? Or be in a situation that isn't really that big of a deal but feel so anxious that you are on the verge of tears.
I've always been what my dad likes to call a softie. Sensitive. My feelings get hurt easily. I take everything personally. So I cry easily. Happy or sad. And I remember as a kid that there would be times that I would just blow my top! I would just lose it. I can't rememeber why. Most likely someone hurt my feelings or something. All grown up now, I am still a softie. BUT on most days I feel irritable. Easily ticked off or if one more thing happens I will just lose it. Then afterwards wonder why I turned into such a crazy ***** over NOTHING. I'll apoligize to whoever I may have taken it out on, but still. The words or actions can't be taken back.
I used to wake up in such a good mood. Happy for the new day. And would remain that way. Smiling, laughing and just enjoying life. I want to be that person again. I don't know what happened to her or why I am having a heck of a time finding her. I want to start living again.