I think you have a bit of anticipatory anxiety. Anticipatory anxiety is the anxiety one experiences before starting a challenging activity. Most often, anticipatory anxiety is a lot higher than what you actually end up experiencing.
I believe you will do well and you won't know if you don't take that leap of faith, that belief in yourself that you can do this. Just take the step out the door and stay in the moment..........no worrying about how things happened in the past or anticipate the worse case scenarios.
You have my support and you can always come here and talk with us. We are happy to help in anyway we can.
Wishing you the best, Kitt
Dear Erik, I want to wish you the very best with whatever decision you make for the coming school year. I hope your meeting goes well and that you come to a resolution that works the best for you. Sending very positive thoughts to you. And thank you for answering my post and for your encouragement. I am taking things slowly and trying not to project into the future. I have gotten through many illnesses and I will get through this. I have put my trust in God and that is what sustains me from day to day. And I will surely enjoy the good times to the fullest. Take care, I am thinking of you.