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faithfully4you
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   Posted 8/22/2009 10:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Well my computer is still on the fritz so I have stopped at the library to touch base.  Really depressed lately and I have decided to be by myself.  The relationships that I have put up with are taking a toll on me and both my friends and I have decided that my depression is to big of a hurdle to withstand and "they" have decided that they cant be with me.  I am ok with this I guess because I didnt really care one way or another.  I guess I am just cold to letting anyone close to me anymore.  For me, those days are over and I am having an extremely rough time coming to terms with being happy.
 
My faith however does pull me through hoping for BETTER DAYZ!!!
 
My son starts school next week so I am busy getting his things together for him.
 
One more year without him with me fulltime and I am hoping to be a fulltime mommy to him once again.  I just want to be happy and sometimes I think that it will never be.  So many painful thoughts and worthless intentions.
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


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   Posted 8/22/2009 3:43 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello my friend !  I do know how you feel and of friends walking away to move on with there lives when I have been stuck in 2nd gear.  Please know life will get better and that I am thinking of you and praying for you to find that happiness you so much deserve.
 
Gentle Hugs
 
Kitt

getting by
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   Posted 8/22/2009 11:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Teresa,

It will be nice for you to have your son full time. That is great. Just think of all the fun things that you can do together.

I am sorry that you are feeling down. I know how it feels. To think that nothing goog is ever going to happen. But it will. You will have the joys of your son and many memories to make. And you will feel better. Children have a way of bringing that out in us.

I hope that you have a great day.

Hugs, Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 8/23/2009 12:20 AM (GMT -7)   
hi teresa, sorry that you are down, all intentions that are positive in nature are never unworthwhile. i too understand the pains of past happenings, but they have passed. and for me that is where they stay. alike us all, regardless of past difficulties there are still a few memories to cherish!!!! good past stuff. with compassion.
 
jamie.

faithfully4you
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   Posted 8/28/2009 11:55 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
My computer is still not working so here I am at the library.  I have been extremely depressed especially realizing that it has been 2 years ago since my attempt.  alot of memories about that day that still haunt me.  God gave me a second chance at life and here I am wondering if I would have been happier with a longer nap.  Im not suicidal but very depressed.  Missing what should have been.
 
I hope everyone is doing ok and I am sorry that I have not been the person who has been able to help everyone else.  I want to feel better!!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


getting by
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   Posted 8/28/2009 1:20 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Teresa,

I am so happy that you posted, but sad that you are sad. I have found that I can't change the roads that I have ended up taking in life and just tried to learn from the experiences. I know that isn't easy for you right now. But there is a reason that you are here today. And I am one of many who are happy that you are here. Don't feel bad that you can't help anybody right now. You have helped many in the past and will again in the future.

Try to look at the good things in you life such as your son. Do it for him, if you can't do it for yourself. Show him the love that you have inside of you.

Best wishes for a great day...

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 8/29/2009 4:47 AM (GMT -7)   
teresa, with every post, those whom are coming on are receiving great confidence via reading your honest and courages post. i still get a lot from your posts too. we never stop learning, thus if i can see relevance in a post to me, then i will have a go at them. i am sure your courage will inspire others to be courages too. well done. peace to you. jamie.

faithfully4you
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   Posted 8/29/2009 11:04 AM (GMT -7)   
It always makes me happy to come back and see your posts!  I take comfort in the fact that my trials have given many members faith to go on in the midst of depression.
Because of HW, I have been able to feel the support and caring from so many people on here.  Sometimes I wonder to myself if it were not for HW, would my life be so much sad and blue.  I know it would!
 
Thank you guys for your friendship, I do love you all!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


getting by
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   Posted 8/29/2009 11:25 PM (GMT -7)   
You sound better today Teresa, I am happy for that. I hope that you are feeling better now.

Keep in touch when you can. I know how it is to go without a computer. You are a wise woman, things will get better, these things take time.

Many hugs,

Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 8/31/2009 1:44 AM (GMT -7)   
and from me 2. ((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))
 
jamie smilewinkgrin

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   Posted 9/1/2009 11:52 AM (GMT -7)   
I feel that the only real friends I have that really do understand and care are here at this forum.  I have lost many over the years, but I guess if they could not stick with me through the bad, they did not deserve to be with me when things were good.  Maybe this is not the correct way to look at it but it gets me through.  Eric Clapton on his "Clapton Unplugged" CD does a song called "Nobody knows you when you're down and out".  I have felt like that so many times but, I also have faith that there are still good people out there to be friends with, I just have to find them!
Gem

faithfully4you
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   Posted 9/5/2009 12:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks you guys for being here!!!!  I have some darling pics of my grand-baby but cant figure out how toput them here for you to see.
He does give me reason for living!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 9/6/2009 12:26 AM (GMT -7)   
as he should!! keep busy, happy and positive. cheers, jamie

faithfully4you
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   Posted 9/14/2009 12:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi All-
Still no computer, I will have to ask Santa for one.  Anyway, I have been down with breathing problems again so the last couple days have been pretty awful.
I did have an interesting Jury Duty last week, very interesting.
 
I can feel a change in my depression as the cold weather starts to come.  I find myself getting more depressed in the evening hours.  lot of anxiety attacks!
 
Still got my faith for better dayz!
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994


" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo


getting by
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   Posted 9/14/2009 9:02 PM (GMT -7)   
You aren't alone with the depression with the change of season. The days are getting shorter and a lot of people are noticing a change in mood. As I recommended to somebody else, try a light box and some vitamin D3. This combingation really does help.

Hugs Karen
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THE HAPPY TURTLE
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   Posted 9/15/2009 3:44 AM (GMT -7)   
teresa, keep well, my love and healings to you. jamie.
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