It does take time and committment but in the end you will benefit.
Take care and again, welcome.
I think trying to make a marriage work with 3 children already in the picture would be pretty hard. Sounds like when you left you were trying to think of them and not yourself which says alot about you, in a very positive way. Life does suck sometimes and really what are you going to do about it? You do the best you can everyday, take care of yourself, be kind to other people and all of a sudden something really good happens and like does not seem so sucky anymore. I hope you feel better soon. You always have lots of outstanding people here to talk to.
I would like to thank everyone for the kind words. I've visited ecouch already so it's somewhere to start, right?
Leaving was a difficult decision, indeed. Leaving behind the 3 kids was awful, but in many ways, they will fare better with me out of the picture. As for me, I think that as it was mentioned above, this is a new adventure, and a new beginning. It's still tough to swallow some moments, and I guess with time, I will learn to cope.
In the meantime, I'm taking time to repair some old lost friendships. And start some new ones, like this place.
Hello Loudest. When you said the following "that I had given up all of the things that I hold in high regard morally and became someone I really didn't like very much." That tells me you had made the right decision by leaving. In my past I have experienced losing myself in a relationship and that is so unhealthy. Compromising who we are is not a positive thing. Good luck on discovering yourself again and making new friends.