In 8th and 9th grade i had a off and on relationship with this girl i really liked alot. we dated for 6 months and after that. It was one of the worst times of my life. that is when my depression started. we dated off and on for about a total of 8 months. break up on the weekends and go back out on the week days. for about 2 months it was like that. it was tearing me apart. i thought it was the end. i became one of the "popular" kids then.
over the summer after 9th grade. i met a girl from a friend of mine. we dated for 1 week. that turned out to almost making some of the worst choices of my life. we dated for 1 week. she told me when she broke up with me that she wanted a break because we dint see each other. so for six months we were not officially "dating" she told her parents we were and her friends we weren't. i was accused of cheating because i was talking to her best friend to see if she was cheating on me because she was always with just her "guy" friends and insisted that they were just friends. he best friend said that she was talking to them (about dating, and other unloyal acts) but she never did anything. she told me to leave her alone and to get out of her life and all im doing is screwing it up. and i did all she asked of me. and still nothing. i would call her for a week and leave messages, but never called back. i went to homecoming with her and spent around $400 on the homecoming. we went to the dance. and she ditched me and didnt talk with me or dance with me. she left and talked and did some "dirty" dancing with them which upset me very bad. she told me she loved me every once and a while. so on the way home i asked her. "do you love me... she said yes," i felt that things were going to turn around and we would be a happy couple. but she told me right after...... "only as a friend". it broke my heart. i didnt talk to anyone for weeks. i dropped out of school and everything was horrible. i had to go to therapy and mental hospital interviews. i was step 4 on a 5 scale suicide latter.
It took months to build back what i lost. i went to a youth group meeting with a friend because he said its just a fun thing to do and it would cheer me up. so i went. thats where i met my current, (on a break) girlfriend.
we started talking and had some intrests we both liked we swapped phone #'s and i called her the next day because my family was going up in the mountains to get a christmas tree. so that day was fun. i thought that she was a nice girl and would be a fun realationship just to try one out again. i had my gaurd up so if anything happened i wouldnt be devistated. but then i started to fall for her, we started dating and we were going strong until now. during the realationship i have made some mistakes like not calling her for a certain time or saying a thing she didnt like to hear 1 to many times. nothing big. during augest she almost broke up with me because she said she didnt want to live this way with me treating her like i dont care and treating her like she is just an item. i felt so bad that she felt that way. i had always acted the same. i dont know what was going on. so i stepped it up. i brought her some flowers from my garden and a letter i made myself. telling her that im changing not because of just what you want because i want to. and i did. i thought to myself i had been a little selfish at times. but it was only things like going to movies i only wanted to see going to dinner a places i only liked. i got my licence and then i would drive her around and we would go up in the mountains and sit and talk around a fire. we would go to the movies and mall and have a great time. all of a sudden she starts having this problem with her parents yelling at her all the time and she was always getting stressed over small things. so stressed that she broke up with me(for a break). which i... i cried for almost 2 days. because i love her so much. and i was so shocked that it would happen because i came out of nowhere. i thought we were doing fine besides that. and now here i am. Im trying so hard. why cant she see that i want to help her. (she insists that its her way "i have to let you go for now beacuse if i dont i get to stressed out and just drop everything, and i dont want to lose you, so if i let you go for now i wont break up with you for good").