Good Morning Coffee4Me
First of all congratulations on your sobriety. That is such a great achievement for you. Give yourself lots of credit for taking care of yourself.
Lynnwood gave you sound advice re your resume'
I see a lot of old baggage in your post as you are trying to figure out all the things that happened in your past.
I am going to try to keep it simple here for you as this is what helped me and I carried alot of baggage for 30 years>
I am a great believer in staying in the moment which I learned in therapy. Making ourself miserable is how we tend to spend a lot of time in the past or the future. We spend much time thinking about what was and what could have been. And we spend much time projecting into the future and wondering about what may happen.
This way of thinking is indeed a great way to make much of your life a lot more miserable and limited than necessary. The key to solving this problem is of course to live as much as you can in the only moment that you ever really live in and control. This moment right now. The moment that is all there ever was and - probably - will be.
Don't seek the future;The past is gone,The future hasn't come.But see clearly on the spotThe object which is now,While finding and living in A still, unmoving state of mind.
Post Edited (stkitt) : 9/15/2009 9:24:10 AM (GMT-6)
debaser is being upfront with you on this one as he was in a pretty bad place a few years back and yet he pulled from strength deep within making a wonderful recovery.
So one step in front of the other and you will make it through this tough time if you believe.
Congrats on your sobriety and congrats on getting your degree. So it took awhile- you still did it! I was 15yrs old when a pyschiatrist told me I would
My point is that I went on to university and got myself 2 degrees. It took me longer than most as well as i had to defer several times for surgery and medical problems, but you know what, i did it- and so did you!
Sadly we define our personal happiness on what society expects from us- you dont have to have a tertiary education to be a wonderful, successful, well rounded person. You were up against alot of external factors, so dont be too hard on yourself and seriously, take pride in what you have achieved as opposed to feeling shame in what you have not achieved. I believe success is defined by the obstacles you overcame to achieve your goals. There is no time limit on this.
All the best,
Post Edited (Mazfire) : 9/18/2009 10:28:02 PM (GMT-6)
You have received great response to your thread and I see you have been reading.............hope that what you have read here has helped you.
Take care and I wish you good luck and peace,