Keep on talking to us as I know that usually helps you.
I am with you on the meds right now as I am starting back on my med starting tomorrow.
Gentle Hugs to you and know your family is here to support you and to just listen.
I hate my absence from you guys... I like coming here as I know you all are here for me and understand more than most people.
Heres an update so-to-speak:
School is still okay... I suppose I have made 2 friends... my lab partner and the girl I had a crush on.. (we decided to be friends after an unexpected turn of events). On Saturdays I have a few friends who come over to watch the ball game and last Saturday another good friend of mine told me that she liked me ALOT and has for a long time.. my friends whom I were with had known for months about it... I cant believe I didnt catch on.. so anyways. I was torn between the hirl at school and my friend. I decided I wanted to be good friends with the girl from school because I knew a relationship between us would be hard, because of her parents. And I really like her as a friend so... we're friends. I decided to give my friend a chance because I know shes a really good person and I have always known how much she cared about me. We have literally saved each others lives before. She had made threats once and I told our counselor and people got involved and it saved her life... and she still thanks me for that... she has done the same for me. So, she asked me out and we are now dating so... I guess the relationship aspect of my life worked out.
I have been doing okay with my school work. Its overwhelming at times because I forget my homework and assignments and everything all the time.. I write everything down and still I forget lol...
The traveling around campus has put a ton of stress on my body in regards to my Fibro.. I have been hurting ALOT more recently. I have to walk alot on inclines and worst of all, stairs. So, I am always sore from that.
Im not sure about my meds... I am having more good days than bad. However, the bad days I have are worse than before..so its really not an even trade! I am always exhausted. And I am having alot of trouble sleeping. Even when I go to sleep really late I still wake up early. I suffer the next day because of it... but when I get into bed early.... I lie there for hours and hours and dont get sleepy at all... I have tried everything and I take melatonin.. nothing works and Im not sure why...
I go to my pdoc tomorrow. I am going to voice all of these concerns with him of course... maybe he can help.. I dont know... I cant remember if I have said everything I wanted to or not lol...so I guess I will talk to you guys later, or if I remember something.... thanks for the kind words and encouragement! Take care